Favorite Christmas

The title says it all. This Christmas has been my favorite ever, After weeks of stress, worrying about my sister and Brady being away, everyone sick, not having money... We had a Christmas filled with family, fun, Christmas spirit, and remembering what Christmas is really about. The morning of Christmas Eve as I was getting ready for work at 6 in the morning I had a knock on my bedroom door and it was my sister Madi and my brother in law Brady. They drove all night from California to suprise us for Christmas! I was so happy and so so suprised! I was so worried about them being away for Christmas and we all had so much fun!! On Christmas eve we had a big dinner, we played games for prizes ( this year it was gift cards) and watched movies together and we made our basement into one big bedroom and then opened our presents at 4 in the morning. Everyone loved their gifts and it was really cool to be able to have Brady be with us this year. Even though him and Madi are not married yet he feels so much like a member of the family already and we love having him in our family. I have never felt the spirit of Christmas so much and have experiences in the past 2 weeks that I have done for others and others have done for me to remind me of what Christmas is all about. This Christmas was a very humbling one for me and one that I will never forget.

Most awesome presents:

Meagen: Brand new camera
Madi and Brady: A ton of stuff for the baby and my parents bringing them home for Christmas to suprise Meagen and I
Mom: Her blog book
Dad: Lights for fish tank and X box messenger kit
Me: laptop
Meagen and I...... drum roll please......... A TRIP TO DISNEYLAND IN MARCH!!!!!

Mickey Mouse here we come!!

( And so will a post about the story of the Disneyland trip and how they wrapped that present =).. complete with pictures. you dont want to miss this.)

How did Holli spend her Friday?

This.

This is what I did littearly ALL Friday. I spent it laying on the love sack in my basement sleeping. The only time I got up was to eat dinner, and I couldn't even keep my eyes open while eating.I am a very light sleeper someone can whiper my name, the first sound of my phone beeping, the opening of my door will wake me up. Not today. People were playing the Wii, talking, walking around me all day and I slept like a baby through the entire day. And yes my dog Marley was there to join me. Not even the sound of people laughing at me and taking my picture didn't even wake me up! Why did I sleep all day? Becuase I had been up for just around 46 hours straight, and I am pretty sure I either have cought my moms phenomia or strep throat. Something really sucky. But Marley took care of me all day, and let me cuddle him while I was sleeping my day away on my love sack. And yes I am aware of how rotten I look in that picture. Hair not done on top of my head, no make up, in pajamas..but apparently someone wanted me to blog about my day of sleeping and include a picture.

**Side note: Stay tuned for posts about my Awesome Christmas.. includes pictures! I had such an awesome Christmas this year, and I hope all my bloggy friends and my blog stalkers did too!

Dear Santa,

This Christmas I would like a boy. I do not want to die alone. I have tried the whole " Focus on you... Take care of yourself...Let your heart take a break becuase I don't think it can take anymore... Just have fun and be you with no boys" thing. Hasn't worked out for me. I am not any happier. And now I just get the feeling that I am going to die alone. I do not wish to die alone. So Santa all I ask for this Christmas is a boy.

When you go to your little elvs and ask them to make Holli ( Who is on the nice list) for a boy please let them know these things:


I do not wish for this boy to be lazy. I do not wish for someone who the only thing they get up to do is to go smoke pot, and play with trucks and tires. No thank you. This boy must have a job and get off his ass and do something with his life.


I do not wish for this boy to have anger issues. I do not want someone to one day me be the love of his life and then the next he wants nothing to do with me. I do not want someone who thinks the world revolves around them, and they can do anything such as stomp on my little heart and pretend its okay. Been there. Done that. Have the horrible depressing memories. Agian, No thank you.



Please tell your elvs to make this boy cute. And nice. And make him be a gentlemen. I don't think I am asking a whole lot here am I? I just want a boy who will put up with my whinning and will take care of me. Please make this boy care enough about me that when he decides he is ready to be married and purposes that he does not tell me 6 months later that he doesn't really want to be married to me and he was just thinking he didn't want to be alone the rest of his life. ( True story) Also.. Real quick santa.. please for Christmas let that boy know that he probably will be anyway. Becuase he sucks. Boo to him.



Please make me a boy that if we ever break up that he can be nice to me and not play games with me and be a moody jerk and think that everything is about him and him only. Let him be man enough to be cordial to me, and not act like we are in Jr. high agian.



I would like this boy to be cute, smart, and a hard worker. Someone who has goals and wants to do something with his life. I would like a boy who can make me laugh until I cry and can have a serious conversation with me.A boy who will treat me like a princess becuase every girl deserves to be treated like a princess. Someone who will love my family as much as he loves me and will never allow his family to treat me like dirt. Oh also. He must love baseball and college football. If your elvs make someone who does not know a thing about either of those please throw him in the FAIL bucket.



I don't think I am asking to much here Santa. I think you could work it out for me. Just one more thing Santa.. If you could work it out so when I first see this boy he is holding a brand new laptop for me.. that would be great. Thanks Santa. Ill be sure to leave you a cookie.. or something. I don't think we have cookies ... Could I offer you a bottle of ketchup.. or maybe a nice can of beans for your food storage?

Uhh Retarted Much?..

Okay. If you are going to take the time to push your cart over to the car holder thing.... why don't you take the time to put it IN THE CART HOLDER THING?? Instead of just setting it next to it. I don't get it!? Who does that!?

Holli the Builder

(Like Bob the Builder..Get it..? Ha.)

Monday night was the Hampton Inn Christmas Party. Every year we have dinner then we do a raffel where every employee gets a gift. There is gifts from free nights stays at different hotels to mens underwear. I really did not want to go this year. My mom was not going becuase she is still really sick with Phenomia. Meagen could not go with me becuase she was sick. Do I have any boys or friends to call and say " Hey!? Wanna be my date to my Christmas Party?" No.. I don't. I think that is why I was in such a bad mood becuase frankly I had no intrest in being around anyone from work anymore then I had to, and I never have a Date to this Christmas party like everyone else does. ( Yes I know. Boo Hoo Holli.).... So where was I... Oh yes. Bad mood. So I came home from work and my dad said that he was going to take me to the Christmas Party. I Know... How sweet is my dad? Daddy Daughter Date!

So when we got to the party of course nothing was set up or ready ( Hampton Party Tradition) And it started 45 minutes late. So as my Dad and I were sitting in our traditional table in the very back corner in the room away from everyone waiting for my friend Brendon and his date to come in and be Back Row Bettys with us I went to show him the gift that I REALLY wanted to win.

Now.. This gift has been at the Hotel for about 2 weeks now. We had a few of them and we gave them to some of our Corporate Clients for Christmas Gifts. The first time I saw it I let EVERYONE know that if they won it at the party I would trade ANYTHING for it. I wanted it SO bad!!! But there was also someone else who wanted it.. Cough... Emily.. Cough

Are you ready for this?

Its a Took Kit... thats PINK!!!... I know right? How awesome is that? Not that I know what any of the tools are or how to use them and lets face it.. what the hell would I use a tool kit for besides leaving it in my car in case something ever happened.... I would have something to give to the poor sucker I roped in the helping me try and fix my car but... its PINK!!

So we ate dinner and then the raffle started. We got are tickets with the number and they give the first gift out. Then they pick up the second gift to give away and my boss says " This next gift is a gift that a few people have caused a stir about... holli......" Everyone looked over to me and of course I wasn't paying attention.. Then he said Pink Tool Kit and my head went straight to him...Hehe. So he called out the number 309.. I looked at my ticket and litteraly yelled " SHUT UP!!!" Everyone started laughing at me but I didn't care becuase I won the damn Took Kit! I never win ANYTHING! Yay for me!!

There was a certain someone cough.. emily... cough who tried trading her Tucanos Gift Certificate for my Tool Kit... Sorry Emily but that wasn't a good idea to offer that to a vegitarian..

I don't have a "Holli Card"

( First of all lets start out by giving the worst Blogger of the Month Award.. And the award goes to .. ME!!!.. Sorry to all my bloggy friends and to all my blog stalkers.. You know who you are.)

This past Saturday was my department Christmas Party that I was in charge of. Lets just say that I have never ran around like a chicken with its head cut off more then I did on Saturday. Good Lord. And also I have never recieved so many phone calls or text messages in one day from all the people who were coming things like that. I always complain about how no one ever calls or texts me. Well.. I think I'll stick with being a loser.

The party was really fun. It was well worth the stress that made my stress level go to about heartattack status. I think everyone had a lot of fun, and everyone who did not come deffinitly missed out. Everyone had a good time, got awesome food if I do say so myself, and in my opinion made off like bandits.

The gift bags that I put together had really cool stuff in it such as a hand made book made by Meagen and I, A bottle of Sparkling cider, a Chocolate Orange, a Holiday Mug, Lots of Candy, Also Thanks to my Dad he made home made Cheesecakes for everyone!

We played games for really good prizes such as a cocoa late machine, blankets ( which I won Sweet!), a Rock Fountin and some other things I don't remember Haha. We played Christmas Bingo, Christmas Movie and Songs Trivia, A Santa hat game and Apples to Apples.. And to make this a short description one person puts down a describing card with A word on it such as " Clueless" and then everyone else puts down a card that they think goes best with that describing card.. Apparently everyone has caught on that I am not the sharpest crayon in the box becuase eevry single card like that atleast one person would say " Well I don't have a Holli Card".. Pick on Holli Christmas Party =(

This is what they described as my personality .....Not funny.
And I hope not true.

( Just kidding everyone.. I don't mind teasing I promise)

Here are some pictures from the night. Thank you everyone who came and a big thank you to Meagen for letting us take over your condo for the night to have our party. Ps.. I don't know why some of the pictures are coming out small. Apologies.

Oh the first picture here I need to explain just so people don't think I am licking some rotten thing.. Well kind of I am.. We had a chocolate fountain that night and we had a bowl of white and dark chocolate mixed together that we didn't use and it hardend with a fork in it and it became a choco pop.. And that is what I am licking =) Hehe

Dear Work

Dear Work,

I am writting to tell you that I might not be making it in to work on Monday morning, due to the fact that Im in an Emotional food eating - no sleep for days coma. Sorry for the inconvience but.. I did write in sick a few days in advance. Clearly it is fair warning. 

             

                         Soon to be coma patient, and your trusted and valued Employee.. 

                                                                    Holli

Also-  I know your all worried about me and my coma status but I'll pull through it. If you would like to send gifts flowers are prefered.. I like Daiseys but I'm not picky... Thanks. Your to Kind.

Where will Holli be April 14th?

Watching Britney EFFING Spears in CONCERT!!! Thats right.. The most amazing person in the world will be in Salt Lake City Ut on April 14th. I LOVE BRITNEY!! SPREAD THE BRITNEY LOVE!!....I could be more excited about this then I was for Twilight. Thats right you heard me. Britney trumps Twilight. Britney trumps ALL!!! I Love Britney. I love Crazy Britney, Naked Britney, Bald Britney, No panties Britney, Pop Princess Britney. I heart Britney!!

Good Reads

Anyone who knows me knows that I hate to read. Hate it. Its a waist of time and its so incrediably boring. HATE reading. Anyway. Becuase the world wide web has been taken away from me at work ( like that stops me.. I am writting this at work Ha suckers) I have been forced to read alot. Well I have found the best book in the world.

Now don't be fooled. The cover gives you the idea thats it a love story of some sort. No. Not even close. What is it about? A school shooting. This book is amazing. It is so well written and has amazing quotes and is all about why this boy was led to do this shooting. I love it and must say as of right now is my all time favorite book, and I have not even finished it yet. If you ever need a good book to read GET THIS ONE! Now I am off to go and read some more!

Gobble Gobble

Lately I have been feeling really depressed and having a really hard time, and feeling like life.. well.. blows. So, In Honor of Thanksgiving or as I like to call it " Rotten Animal on a Platter Day" I am going to make a list of all the things that I am greatful for in life. *Here we go!* (Mario Voice)

• Parents who have taught me right from wrong, taught me how to love and treat others as I want to be treated. To always stick up for my self, never back down and always defend my self and people you love. Always have an arguement ready if I am in a debate. That family comes first no matter what. To be a hard worker and depend on yourself and family. To never be judgemental and always accept others for who they are. To speak whats on my mind and have an opinion. I am greatful for the relationship that I have with my parents. I know that I could go to them for anything and everything no matter what it is. Who I can hang out with them on a Friday night and have the best time ever. Who if I am in trouble I feel comfortable to go to them with my problems. I am greatful for my dad who has taught me to be chartiable. He would give his right arm to a stranger if they asked for it without thinking twice about it or asking why. He has taught me to be greatful for what I have and never complain because there is someone who is far worse then you are. A mom who has taught me to follow my heart and dream big. And no matter what life throws at you to stay positive and remember that everything happends for a reason. My parents have taught me that family is the most important thing in the world and to always be there for them and they will always be there for me. A mom who would stop whatever she is doing to be by my bedside if I am sick. I love my parents so much and they are my heros and role models. I look up to them in so many ways and I have so much respect and love for them. They both have been through so much but you never hear them dwell on it they are both so strong. And when I have my own family I only hope to be half the mom that mine is and I hope that I have a husband who is caring and loving to me like my dad is to my mom. The only boy a girl can trust is there daddy =)
• Sisters who are my BEST friends. I love Madison and Meagen SO much! I know that no matter what I am doing with them I will have a blast and that I could go to them with anything and they will always be there for me. I don't know what I would do without my sisters. I love that we all are so different but we can always tell what eachother are thinking and are about to say. We can finish eachother sentances and I know that if I could send them a text message with a random movie line or an inside joke they would get it and know what I am talking about right away. I can't go one day without talking to Meagen and I miss Madi so much. She is in California and about to be a mom and I know that she is going to be such a good mom. She is so caring of others and so pretective of the things and people she loves. She has the biggest imaginiation and the most hilarious since of humor she makes me laugh so hard. Meagen is so giving and talented and works so hard for what she wants in life. She is an amazing sister and friend. I can't even tell you how many times she has helped me with things without even being asked. She has done so many amazing things in life and I don't think she will ever know how much I look up to her. I love Meagen and Madi and I would be so lost and sad without them in my life. I am so greatful for the relationship I have with them and I would not change anything that I have with my sisters for the world.
• I am so greatful for such an AMAZING doctor who has saved my life on more then occasion. He is my number one Hero. He has helped me so much in the past 5 years of my life. Not just with my health but with person problems as well. There was a time where everything in my life was falling apart and going down the shitter and I went to see him for something and I just lost it and starting balling and he sat in the room with me for a good hour without getting up to leave and see other patients and just talked to me about everything and did not leave until he knew I was ok. He has given me the best advice of my life. I am so greatful for all the times he has worked so hard in making me better and making sure that every procedure, test, surgery, hospital stays went okay and that I was always being taken care of. He probably has a thousand patients but he always makes me feel like I am his number one priority. I am so greatful for him becuase he does not beat around the bush he will always tell me what is going on and what is going to happen. I am so greatful for him becuase I can be in the worst shape of my life and on my death bed but he can walk in to the room and I feel so much better becuase I know that he is going to take care of me and make sure that I get better. He has a huge spot in my heart and in my life I will never forget the things that he has done for me and my family. I honestly don't know what I would do without my Uncle James. ( Ps. He is not really my uncle I just see him so often he might as well be family)
• A job that knows me and knows about my health problems and that allows me to leave for a month on sick leave and they will always have my job waiting for me.
• Medicine
• Believe it or not I am greatful for all of the shitty things that has happened to me and everything that I have been through becuase it has made me the person I am today and everything has just made me stronger.
• I am greatful for 7-11
• The country that I live in that the freedom that I have. I am greatful for people like Alex Winder who are fighting for me to keep that.
• Blogs.. They keep me entertained at work.
• A running car that get me from point A to point B
• My parents allowing me to live in their home rent free
• LAUGHTER
• Movies
• Who I am
• My dog Marley
• Living in a state that has 4 seasons
• Moments that make me laugh
• Moments that make me cry
• Stars for wishing on
• The people who have come and gone in my life
• Dreams
• The ability to choose right from wrong
• Dance
• Feeling loved
• Loving someone
• Makeup
• Getting a good nights sleep in my huge comfortable sleigh bed
• The color Pink
• The church of Jesus Christ and Ladder day Saints
• My book of Morman
• Prayer
• That I have lived to see another day
• Repentance
• That I did not get married last year
• Alex for healing my broken heart..even though he broke after that. Ha. Jerk. =)
• Being comfortable at work because I know my job and what I am doing very well.
• Coke and Fruit snacks... pretty much what I live on.
• Greys Anatomy
• Trials
• My neighbors, The Doxey Family
• Summertime
• Baseball
• Britney Spears
• My family and the very close relationship that we have
• My friends at work who are always willing to help out and cover for me if I am sick.
• The ability to walk talk and see
• My cell phone
• Books

Well there you have it. I am kind of bored with this now so maybe I'll go read or.. something. Hope you all had a good "Gross animal on a platter day" I enjoyed my fruit salad and mashed potatoes.

Twilight Night

I know I am a little late posting about this but.. I have been a little out of it.. (SEE PREVIOUS POST HERE)So at exactly 12:01 am Friday morning Emily, my mom, Meagen, and Myself went and watched the movie Twilight. We went in full out Twilight gear. Emily was so kind to make all of our shirts that we wore.

We saw it up in Salt Lake so we left a few hours early becuase we knew the line would be long and we wanted good seats. So when we got there it was perfect timing! They were letting people inside for our showing. Sweet! And then we sat in line for about an hour or so playing cards, eating movie theatre food. ( Oh and BTW I have another post about the douche bag who worked the consessions at the theatre. What an Jack ass. Emily do you agree?..We wanted to get him fired!) Also we laid in coffins.

Anyway.. They let us in the Theatre where this group of girls who were just asking for trouble when they cut RIGHT in front of everyone and they just BARLEY got there. Um.. Little girsl. Im sorry but you did not just cut in front of people who have been waiting HOURS in line. I was truly ready to rumble. I was screaming out " THEY ARE LINE CUTTERS!!! MAKE THEM GO TO THE BACK OF THE LINE!!" My mom was holding up her cane poking them in their backs.. I was a little upset.But.. I became even more upset when the movie started and the audience was all a bunch of screaming and laughing little girls. The movie...NOT a comedy..... But then I started laughing too... Not because it was funny becuase it was so STUPID!! OH MY GOSH! They slaughtered the book. They rushed everything, they made Edward out to be some Merv the Perv Creepo who is a freak ( But a very good looking one I might add.. I would still make a baby with him Hehe..) The movie was horrible. The scene where he gets in the Sun and he shines. .. What the hell? And the scene where he is jumping from one tree to the other " You can't defeat me!" ... Jumps to another tree " I am to strong for you!!" jumps to another tree " I AM A MONSTER".. agian.. What the hell?

Anyway... I didn' thate everything about the movie. The scene where he walks in to the lunch room and he hears what Jessica says about him and he smiles.. Uhmbuh.... I love him. He is so hot. I would go and see the movie agian because I am a twilight fanatic but I thought it sucked ass. ( If you add the word ass to the end of another word... It means its pretty serious.)

All in all I had a fun night with Emily and Meagen and my mom. I love them all so much! .. And Edward. Even though he is Creepy Merv the Perv.

**** And WHAT was with the SUNGLASSES Edward wore.. Oh .. I can't even think about it. It makes me so angry it was so STUPID!

Zombie Girl

Whats new with me? Oh nothing.. just the fact that I have become a walking zombie. I was really sick over the weekend becuase my fibromyalgia is kicking my ass. Seriously. So I went to the doctor. He put me on a drug specifically for fibro. Good news. My body does not hurt as bad but I have side effects. What are they you ask? Here let me show you.

Most Common Side Effects
You should know that, like other medicines, LYRICA may cause side effects. In clinical trials, some of the most common side effects of LYRICA were dizziness, sleepiness, weight gain, blurred vision, dry mouth, feeling "high", swelling of hands and feet, and trouble concentrating. These side effects were often mild to moderate. A small number of patients in clinical trials stopped taking LYRICA because of the side effects. You should not drive a car or work with machines until you know how LYRICA affects you.

Seriously I have been on it for 2 days and I am not even kidding I have every single one of those. I am not someone who gets a new medicine and looks up everything about it on the internet to see what side effects they are and then freak my self out by thinking I have all of them. But this time I really do. I am so out of it. I am litteraly a walking zombie. I can't drive.. I went to work for a few hours..ha no way.. I can't even tell you what happened while I was there. I have no appetite I don't even remember the last thing I ate. I was at the pharmacy last night and I litteraly fell down I could not even walk straight. My mom had to hold on to me. At work Im pretty sure I screwed up a lot of peoples reservations because I could not concentrate it was like I forgot how to do everything.

And now I am on some antidepressant which is an upper and then on pain pills that are downers... I am a zombie. But good news! Apparently this antidepressant helps with OCD so maybe I won't have to lock the doors 7 times at night and lay out kidnappers clothes and look back at my garage door 3 times befor I drive away.. Lets cross our fingers!

Why did I just blog about this? Pretty sure I just made myself sound like a crazy druggy.

Whatever.

" For a first kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss. Trust me, You don't want to. Cause when you find the right person for a first kiss, its everything."

Alex Karev

Greys Anatomy

Tonight..

At 12:01am, I will be watching TWILIGHT.. getting me some Edward Cullen. Oooo

Writers Block..?

I started writting this post yesterday at work. Then my boss came up and saw that I was on the internet and asked me to get off. Ha. Sucker. Little did he know I would just wait until the day he does not come in until 3pm and I would finish my post at work then! Apparently my dad thinks I'm funny. And thinks I have enough imagination in me to write a book. Once when I was in Elemantary school I was published. It was a contest to go to a young writters confrence and there was only 2 people in the entire school to be chosen to go. I was one of them. I had the story that I wrote for the contest published in a book full of short stories. What was it about? Timmy and his friends having a snowball fight..or eating sandwhiches in the snow.. or something? I don't remember. Anyway, My dad gave me a challenge. What is the challenge? To write a book. When I said no he said " Why not its not like you have anything else better to do." Tru dat dad.. Tru dat. So I accepted the challenge but I told him he had to give me a topic or a plot to write about. His suggestion " Okay.. So its the year 2012 and there is 60 billion people on this earth and its to expensive now to bury people in nice coffins when they die so they start just throwing people in the ground and in old cardboard boxes and stuff and like bugs eat them and then they like start growing the human powers and they start taking over the world.. BUGS TAKE OVER THE WORLD HOLLI"

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Crickets...

Thanks dad. But no. Thats a big no. Where does he come up with this stuff? Do I look like a science fiction lover nerd bomber? I hope not. So anyway, my mom gave me ideas about cell phones and teenagers, celebrities, loving the color pink, or writting about a girl who hates working at a hotel.

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That was a lot of help. I got alot from that to go on. Uh No!

So the point of this post is I need some ideas. Something to write my book about. Leave me comments and give me ideas. But if I write a book and I become huge like Stephanie Meyer I already have a dedication for the book. " This book is dedicated to.. Whatever"

Why whatever? Becuase whenever I read a book and the word is to big for me to know and understand it.. I replace it with the word " Whatever"

Seriously.

Ugh..

*Warning..This post is a downer..bitchy..and probably rude but I don't really care..Just a heads up

Not to copy the exact words my sister Meagen said a few days ago but I am in a bad place today. (Sorry for the word steal Meg) ... I am in a horrible mood that came on so quickly, and I don't know how to shake it. I have been at work since 7 am and its only 10:30 and since I have been at work I have gone from good mood nothing wrong or bothering me to pissed off mood and depressed with hurt feelings, and I swear I will attack the next person that talks to me.

I woke up this morning feeling like I slept really good, I had a pretty good weekend, I was going to try and have a good week at work and all of that quickly turned around.While at work I have been ignored, had a door slammed in my face, Talked to someone and they did not even acknowledge me, took on a big project without being asked and did not even get a Thank you, been disrespected and talked down upon and all I had to is put a smile on my face and nod my head. So ya its been a real awesome day.

And then I started looking at peoples blogs and I became really depressed. They all talked about how they either had an awesome weekend with their boyfriend, or they were sick and their husbands took care of them, or how their boyfriends became their fiances and then I thought about what I did on my weekend.. I watched tv and a movie with my parents. I have no one. And its really beggining to suck. Its really lonely, I hate being lonely.

No, I am not trying to throw a pitty party for myself or make people feel bad for me and write me a comment saying " Oh Holli one day you will find someone who will treat you right and you will find love" Please.. do not do that. There is nothing I hate more then going to someone to get advice or because I need to vent becuase I am sad and hearing that speech. SUCK IT! But.. it really sucks to have no one. To hate your job, To be the only child living at home so you can't even hang out with your siblings, to have friends who all either are married or have boyfriends so they don't really want anything to do with you unless they need something from you or secretly just feel bad for you. (I know that sounds mean..call me a bitch I don't really care but thats how I feel)

So lifes pretty awesome right now wouldn'tcha say!?

For Me? You shouldn't have!

So this past week I have felt so loved. I have received a gifts from people all week! Some of them were thank you gifts, and some of them were for no good reason at all! And I love them!

On Saturday my mom brough me a bouqet of roses! Why? Becuase she knows I love having flowers in my room! ( And probably becuase they were only one dolla! And they are gorgeous!) Anyway, I forgot to take a picture of them before I came to work so I am going to post a picture of one of my favorite flowers These are Gerbera Daisies and I love them!...Well seriously I love all flowers but these are one of my favorite! They are so bright and colorful. I don't know how they could not make someones day! I always have fresh flowers in my room! But sadly I always have to buy them my self =( .. If someone sends me flowers they are my favorite person ever! Receiving flowers is my favorite thing in the entire world. I love flowers. They make me so happy. I still have flowers that that I have dried that I received in like the 7th grade. ( No I am not a pack rat ) So mom.. Thank you for my flowers you got me they are so pretty.. and pink! And you are my favorite person in the entire world.. until the next person gives me some! Hehe. Wink Wink =)

Then on Monday one of my managers here at work gave me a gift. Her name is Sarah and she is the Sales Director at the hotel. She went out of town last week to New Jersey and while she was gone we had a lot of teams and groups come in. Since she was not here she had given me the responsibility of getting all the contracts, taking all the calls, and everything set up and ready for them. So she had brought me a gift back from New Jersey to say thank you. It is so cool!!!

Thats right. You read that right. Its paper. Made out of Elephant Poo. HOW COOL IS THAT? The paper and the box it comes in is all made out of poo. I think its awesome. You can see the grass and everything in it. No it doesn't smell like poo if thats what your wondering. You can look at their website by CLICKING HERE. The website is actually really funny. Anyone who knows me knows that I love to write people notes, or thank you cards,reminder notes, anything like that so I will go through this paper fast! As soon as its gone I am going to use the little box it came in as a jewlery box! And the best part of all... ITS PINK! Thanks Sarah for my Poo Paper!

This gift I did not recieve but it was brought into work for me. On Tuesday I was not feeling well so I left work around 11:00. The person that came in after me at 3:00 brought me in one of my favorite bannana slurpee!!! Since I was not there I did not get it, and someone else drank it for me but it was the thought that counts =) Thanks Brendon! I am sure I would have drank that slurpee right up!

This morning I went into work and checked my box, and there was a book with a card taped on it in there. Its a book called "Three Cups Of Tea"

I guess its about a mountaineer who ended up in an impoverished Pakistan village after he failed climbing K2. Once he left he promised everyone in the village to come back and build a school there for them. And he ended up coming back and building over 55 schools there. Its a testament to the power of the humanitarian spirit.

There is a qoute on the back of the book that I think is really cool it says " Here in Pakistan and Afghanistan we drink three cups of tea to do business; the first you are a stranger, the second you become a friend, and the third you join our family, and for our family we are prepared to do anything-even die"

I am excited to read this book. There was a really nice card that Dennis my front desk manager wrote to me. It really made my day and made me feel better about how I am doing in my new position. The Card Says " Holli, this book represents inspiration and you inspire me. Through your honesty, hard work and your desire to learn and grow, you have inspired me. You make me smile and you keep me sane! You help to keep my work load manageable. Thank you for all that you do. Dennis."

I thought it was really sweet. So anyway, those are all my gifts for the week! I feel so loved! Thanks everyone who made my week!

Oh and side note. Today my sister Meagen is brining me Lunch. Guess what lunch is today? A 7-11 slurpee and 2 taquitos! Yes! She knows her audience..

Hi I'm Holli.. And I'm an addict

Its been about 3 months now. I remembered the first time I tried it. My mom bought me them. We were on our way to Salt Lake City, and she needed to stop and get gas. I was feeling faint and I know I needed something. I asked her to get me something .. bag of chips, a cookie, maybe even a candy bar. I was suprised at what she brought me. I gave her what she calls " The Lip". The look of discust.. The what the hell did you bring me look. I was really afraid of eating them but I knew I had to. I was really afraid that what I was about to eat would make things worse. Anyone who knows me knows that I am a picky eater. I hardly eat at all. I don't eat meat, I don't eat anything I have never heard of befor, or that I can't tell what it is. I don't eat anything that once was alive, came out of something living, or anything that has blood on it befor you cook it. So you can see why I was scared to eat something that was from 7-11.

And that is where the addiction started.

This my friends is a Go Go Taquito. From the Sev Aka 7-11. From that day on I have not been able to stop eating these. This addiction has taken me as far as paying with nickles and dimes to by 2 taquitos for $2.22. I don't have alot of money but the money I do have goes to these bites of heaven. I don't know how to stop. Its embarassing me. Sometimes I drive 3 or 4 extra miles just to go to a different 7-11 just so the employees at the one by my house don't suspect me of being an addict to their taquitos. Its not all of their taquitos. Just one particular kind. Jalapeno Cream Cheese. I can't stop eating them. The looks I get I when I go into purchase them. I try and disguise my self so they don't recognize me. But when they see me asking for my 2 Jalapeno Cream Cheese taquitos and my Bananna flavored Slurpee they know its me.

Thats right. The addiction doesn't stop at the Taquitos. The slurpees..They call to me. I can't overcome the pressure and the cravings for them. And agian its not all of them. Its just the bannana flavored ones. I can't stop craving them. From the time I wake up in the morning from the time I go to bed. This addiction is taking over. I once went into my room and counted 4 slurpee cups and 3 taquito bags.

I don't even know myself anymore. I try going to different gas stations Holiday, Chevron, Maverick any gas station that does not have rolling heating units with crispy heavenly taquitos and slurpee machines but I just can't stay away. I will do anything for these. Its like when I am driving and I drive by a SEV its like someone takes over my body and makes me turn the steering wheel to the 7-11. I knew I had hit rock bottom when I walked into the Sev on Center Street in Orem and the employee there saw me and walked right to the rolling grill and got my taquitos without me asking.. and then she rang me up for my slurpee as well becuase she knew I was getting that too.

I need help. I can't stop. Its changing everything about me. My looks.. I feel like such a heffer from eating these.. I know I look like a beefkins. All I eat is 7-11.. I don't know why I let my self get like this. I am always so careful about what I eat why would I ever allow myself eat from the Sev? Look at what it has done to me.

I need to find a Taquito and Slurpee Addiction group. I need to stop this.

Having said that. If someone were to bring me a bananna slurpee from the Sev right now.. they would be my new favorite person for life. I wouldn't argue if you brought 2 jalapeno cream cheese taqutios. They are 2 for $2.22! That plus a Meduim Sized Slurpee ( Bannana Flavored remember) it comes to $3.35.. Just an Fyi

Seriously.

Saturday Night.

Best.

Night.

Ever.

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

I feel crazy.

Seriously.

So Yo So Yo Ho

So while at work right this minute, I am pretending to type up something " Important" So that this guest who NEVER STOPS TALKING will think I am busy and will hopefully leave me alone. Ha. Fool.

I have nothing to blog about lately. I have no funny stories, no mean rude comments to make about who is pissing me off this week, nothing to complain about ( well I have a lot to complain about but whats the point.. bitching on my blog doesn't make anything better..I know crazy right?) I am not funny anymore therefore I have nothing to blog about.

Look at that picture. Please don't say anything about how Rotten Face Sally Alex and I both look. (Oh ps I am glad Alex is not able to get online to see that I just called him Rotten Face Sally Hehe) Anyway... Notice my left eye? How it kind of looks like Lazy Eye. Want to know why? Oh thats becuase I poked myself in the eye with a thumb tack that day. And guess what? I did it agian today. It hurts so bad. You can actually see the little red hole in my eye where I hit it. My eye is like bloody discustingly red. I can hardly keep it open. I did it while getting ready for work today. Oh your probably wondering why I had a thumb tack to my eye. Well. I blame my sister Meagen. She taught me that if you use a thumb tack to seperate my crazy long eye lashes then they will be as full and long like the girls on the commercials... My day did not start of great. I am just glad Alex is not here for me to say to him " I poked my self in the eye...agian" and him to say back to me " Dumb ass."

I feel like throwing up.

Last night I went to The Village Inn with Devin and Shawn. I can't even tell you how much I love these 2 boys. They are Uh-mazing! I use to hang out with them alot befor their missions and then they left and this is the first time I have been with them since they came home 5 months ago. I had so much fun with them and they are such good people. I love being around them they make me so happy =)

I tried to go to Barnes and Nobel last night to get this book I have wanted forever. . . I am pretty sure there is steam coming out of my ears just thinking about this. I swear I drove up and down University Parkway for 40 minutes last night trying to remember which freaking strip mall barnes and Nobel is in. Everytime I found it I would be on the other side of the road 3 lanes away so I couldn't get over. I ended up sitting in my car.. saying a few choice 4 letter words. Saying to myself " screw it books are stupid" and going home.

I got a pretty big pay check this week becuase of my raise. That was cool. Its all gone. I have had it less then 24 hours. I hate being an adult. And in 40 grand worth of debt. Stupid Money Theives! .. I wonder if I used the " I'm a poor starving college student" excuse they would be nicer to me and stop harassing me and taking all of my pay check. They probably wouldn't believe it, They might ask me a college student question and I would freeze and have to flash them or something to get out of it.

My car has no heater. Its really cold driving to work in the mornings =( I hate being cold

I swear since I got my promotion to Supervisor I am like WORST EMPLOYEE OF THE MONTH.... I am late like every single day. And I am here for like an hour after I am suppose to be done becuase I am so far behind on everything. And now that I am a supervisor I feel like I have to care and feel bad about that stuff. Befor I didn't care at all.

Meagen got our Tickets for the midnight showing of Twilight! I don't know if any of you watched that clip I put on my blog befor it was removed but if you did I was really bugged by all the screaming girls. But I just watched clips and trailors for the movie.. I might be one of those screaming girls.. Oh Edward... how I love you and want your babies.

I have pulled a muscle in my neck today. It hurts. I am just beating myself up today good lord.

I don't know what the point of this post is. No one is probably even reading this so I am just going to end it. Bye bye now

Go Me Go!

The first time I vote and my team won!! Yay for America... and Me..And Obama!!! Maybe this Country won't go to hell in a hand basket after all!

Rock The Vote

Apparently I have to go Vote today. I have to go wait in a 4 hour line to go press a few buttons.. or check a few marks... or write a name? I don't know how it works. I have never done it befor. Can someone just do it for me? I don't want to go. But if I don't then I can't bitch about how there is a War going on and how I have had no health insurance for 4 years. Can someone important in Washington just read my blog and vote a guy for me? That would be awesome. Thanks Washington... It is Washington right?


Make love not war. And vote for someone who will get Holli health insurance.

Happy Birthday Mom Dawg

Its Mom Dawgs birthday. Happy Birthday Mom. Wanna know what she wants to do for her birthday? Go to iKea. Ha. Weird. And then she wants to go to Sizzler...ish. What does Ish mean? Something LIKE Sizzler? Or does she just want a steak? I dont know? But I can't complain about going somewhere that serves animal that is still Mooing when you get it so I will just enjoy some breadsticks and keep my wanting to throw up to myself becuase its her Birthday. That is my gift to her. Not complaining about going to yet.. ANOTHER restraunt that is all about Animal on a plate. Happy birthday!



Things I love about My mom:

• She takes care of me when I am sick. She is the best care taker. Even though she just laughs at me and says " What else is new?" When I say " Mom I think I am going to throw up!" ...She once took off a week of work to sit with me while I was in the hospital and watch Greys Anatomy with me...Or maybe it was just the Greys Anatomy she took work off for..


• She is so outgoing and friends with everyone. She can strike up a conversation with a random person at the store and then keep in touch with them for the rest of time!


• She is scrapper! She fights for what she believes in.


• She is such a hard worker and such a busy body. She hates to sleep, Watch Tv, Read.. She thinks its a waist of time and I think its funny.


• When she dies she wants to be buried with her dirt collection. Haha. Also she has litteraly said " There will be some serious haunting going on by me if ANY of you are sad when I die!"


• She is a littly crazy


• She won't get mad at me that I just called her crazy becuase she knows its true.


• When she uses a computer she double clicks on everything and its so funny!


• She is so talented from scrapbooking, to decorating, to drawing and caligraphy she is awesome at everything.


• She is one of my best friends and she totally acts like a 21 year old when I am with her not as my mom.


• She makes me laugh


• She will always tell you the truth on something even if its not what you want to hear.


• She is such a good mom and will be such a good Grandma..She once told me to go have sex so she could be a grandma... Uh ok mom.


• You never hear her complain. There is always someone in my family who is sick and dying but if she is the one who is sick and dying you never hear her complain about it.


• You would never be able to tell she has MS. She is always so bubbly and happy and sometimes just has waay to much energy for me to handle =) She never lets it show.


• She is such a hard worker. She never leaves for the day until all her work is done. I once broke my wrist at work and was sitting in her office crying telling her I needed to go to the hospital and she said " Let me just finish these phone calls then we can go" Good thing I wasn't dying.


• She cries in every Disney movie where the mom dies. Don't mention Little Nemo to her or she will lose it. Not even kidding. That is not a joke.

Happy Birthday Mom. Hope you have the best day ever! Love Loves

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Cutie, Cutie, make sure you move that booty

So, lately, I have been feeling a little bit depressed. All last week I just came home from work and went in my room for the entire night. And while I was spending hours on end in my room I got to thinking about how I wanted to switch rooms. There is a lot of memories that I have in that room that I just want to forget about. ( All you people with sick minds that probably sounded.. dirty? Or something..) Anyway.. So I wanted to switch rooms. But then I got to thinking that the only other room downstairs where I want to be is a room that I didn't want to be in at all. Why you ask? Becuase when a certain someone lived with my family that is where his room was and well.. I want no memories of him. So I knew that if I was going to change rooms then I was going to have to make it a BRAND NEW ROOM! So.. I woke up on Saturday morning and decided to get the H out of my old room and make my new room litteraly.. a brand new room. I painted. Thats right. I got " Artsy ." So this is the room befor I started painting. I got everything out and taped it all and then got the paint ready.

Isnt the paint PRETTY? Actually.. There it looks like poo but when I got it all done it is really pretty.

So While I was taping the room down my mom was cleaning out my window well. Aparently there has been this HUGE ASS TREE growing in it? I know.. Who knew? So my mom and my cousin and my dad tried to get this huge tree out of my window well..

While they were working so hard getting that tree out of my window I was....Uhm... Painting? Some of you might have recieved that picture in a text message =)



Haha. I know pretty huh? Anyway, So here is the room after it is all painted and I just barley started bringing my stuff in.

And now... for the final room... I don't know why but some of the pictures are blury... =( and it makes me sad but.. you can see them still. Here is the final pictures.... drum roll please....

The closet area


My Picture wall..I Love me some marilyn and James =)
My window area...that is now tree free =)

My bed is a little bit messed up but you can still see how pretty it is =)

So there it is friends and blog stalkers. My new room. I L.O.V.E it! And I love that it has its own little private area in the basement that closes off from everything else and that my bathroom is in the same area! Its Uh-mazing! And there is no more memories of anyone or anything! Yay!

On a different note. I have been really struggling with my new position at work. Not with the position its self just with one part of it... Training a new employee. I won't go in to detail becuase I don't want to hurt anyones feelings or anything like that but I have just been having a hard time with it.. anyway but I walked into work today and I saw THIS

I know you can't see it really well but I have my own little managers box by all the other managers! Yay for me! Its all official and full of awesomeness. Haha actually its not that big of a deal I just thought it was kind of cool. Now people can leave me love notes =) Haha Jk. Anyways. So there is whats new with me. Pretty boring huh?