Get Well =(

I know this is kind of... well... not usually what I blog about but its my blog and I will do what I want on it. If you don't like it click that little red X at the top right of your screen and farewell! I know this is kind of a depressing post but this little boy and his family have been in my thoughts and prayers the past few weeks and I hope that you guys will keep him in yours as well.

I don't know if any of you have heard about the little boy Tyler who was wrapped in toilet paper by his friends and then he was lit on fire at the Geneva Park. He is up at the U of U hospital in the ICU. He has been there for about 2 weeks now and he was just barley taken off of the ventilator. He is breathing on his own now but at night he has to have a breathing tube. He was unconscious for about a week but now he is alert. He suffered second degree burns on the entire left side of his body, and along his neck and his face are 3rd degree burns. Click RIGHT HERE for the link to read one of the many News Artical about this. Anyway, one of my managers at the hotel is the Uncle of this little boy and he said that he really needs all the prayers that he can get. He is doing a little better each day but is not in good spirits. The family is really in need of Prayers and good thoughts of Tyler getting better and him being okay. There is an account set up for Tyler at Zions Bank that you can donate money to that will help him and his family out. ( His full name is Tyler Morgan) ..anyway if everyone could just keep him in your prayers I know his family will appreciate it. ( Ps...The story about Tyler was even talked about on Perezhilton.com! Whoa!)

Half and Half

(* Authors Note.. This was suppose to be a "High School" survey but since most of you know I only went to high school for 2 months the rest I did the Home and Hospital program this is going to be half Jr.High and half High school post for me... okay ready go.)

1. Did you date someone from your school? No I didn't.. I was a huge flirt but anytime I got asked out I would just blow the guy off. Haha well if you want to count " going out" with Bryson.. and by going out I mean we never talked to eachother or saw eachother...and I was totally hanging out and macking on other guys....but I was " Going out" with him.. Haha good times.

2. What kind of car did you drive? I didn't drive I didn't get my licence until I was 18 becuase the awesome Drivers Ed teacher called me a Snotty Bitch and then flunked me. ( That was Mr. Laraghue) And yes I have a witness that he really did call me a snotty bitch. Also my doctor would not let me drive until I was off of pain medication so I had to wait a while. But when I did start to drive I drove ..and still do a Chevy Cavalier... aka The Shark Attack!

3. Were you a party animal? No not so much when I was in Junior High I kept Super Busy with School ( Not that I was a good student at all) and then after school ever night I was at dance until like 10:00pm so I never really had time to do anything else. And then in High school I like died so no I was not a party animal... but I am pretty sure if I was I would be known as the slutty drunk dancer girl =)

4. Were you considered a flirt? I was a huge flirt... I never stole anyones boyfriend or anything.. well not really.. but I was a big flirt..I still am.. Hee Hee

5. Were you in band, orchestra or choir? I was in choir! I was not choir chick like on American Pie or anything haha but I took choir as a class. And only becuase it had like a BUNCH of my friends in it and the teacher was one of my dance coaches soooooo I pretty much got out of having to go to every concert and performance and still passed with flying colors! ...One time we were suppose to split up into groups and get in front of the class and sing a song together.... My group got up and sang Animal Crackers in My Soup. Haha... Oh gol..

6. Were you a nerd? No not really..I was not like a geeky pocket protecter love my calculator nerd but I was a nerd becuase I was kind of a stupid blonde. Not much has changed.

7. Were you on any varsity teams? No I didn't make it to Senior Year I was in Home School that year.

8. Did you get suspended/expelled? I swear I got Lunch Detention All the time!! I never got suspended or expelled but I was always getting lunch detention. But the supervisor or whatever for that was one of my friends mom so she never made me call my parents or anything hahah she let me play on her laptop the whole time.. Haha lunch detention was awesome.

9. Can you still sing the fight song? Uhh. No. I was a Cheerleader my Sophmore year ...the whole 3 months I was in school ( PS...I am the only cheerleader at that high school that was actually kicked off the squad. I got kicked off for never being at school and having Horrible Grades) Anyway I was a cheerleader and I don't know the Fight Song.

10. Who were your favorite teachers? I liked my first home and hospital tutor. For my Foods Class he said " Make me some muffins and if I eat them and don't die then you pass" Hahah By the way thats how like all of my classes were I had a tutor come out for an hour once a week to my hour or the hospital where ever I was and If I didn't feel good that week I just called and canceled school haha Sweet Man.

11. Where did you sit during lunch? At my kitchen table. In Junior High I was all over the place I never sat in a spot but when I did it was always the same table but I never really ate so I never really needed to sit...

12. What was your school's full name? Mountain View High School and Orem Junior High

13. What was your school's mascot? It was a Bruin. What the hell is a bruin?

14. Did you go to homecoming and who with? I only went one year I went my Senior year and I went with Reed Doxey.. What an awesome guy... I had so much fun but I was soooo Sick! I had been throwing up all night befor and all day long haha I am sure I was a ball of fun

15. If you could go back and do it again, would you? I have always said that if I could go back to anytime in my life I would go back to 9th grade.. I loved it!!! I had so much fun and I miss having dance be my entire life and ohhhhh I just miss it so much. I had so much fun that year. But High school? Oh Hell no. I would never go back. I had horrible rumors go around about me when I stopped going to school. I was known as the Pregnant Anorexic girl who was on drugs and in rehab and that is why my doctors pulled me out of school...Would YOU want to go back to that?...didn't think so.. If I ever got to go back to 9th grade though I would do things differently. I would try harder in my classes becuase I never cared so I never tried.. I would be nicer to people.. sometime I was a real bitch.. I would deffinitaly tell Alex that I was in love with him so he could have known then and not now 8 years later, and I would deffinitaly tell Mr. Byington my English teacher to stick it where the sun don't shine and go to hell.

16. What do you remember most about graduation? My graduation day was my 18th birthday and I told my parents the only thing I wanted was not having to walk. They said " You will miss out on this High School experiance if you don't" Ok News flash.... I laid in a hospital bed for my entire High School experience..... I missed out on everything else.. I don't need this!!! But in the end they made me walk and I am really glad they did it really was an awesome experience and it really was the only thing that made me feel like a normal high school student hahah I know that sounds dumb but it was and I am really glad I did it. Oh and when I nominated myself Valivictorian of my class... Go Team me. Hehe I was the only one in my " class" hahaha So funny I am.

17. Where did you go Senior Skip Day? Every day was Senior Skip day for me! Yay!!! Really though..being at home in bed or in the hospital EVERY DAY really got old and was not as nice as you would think it would be.

18. Were you in any clubs? Yes when I started the Home and Hospital program I was in the " I don't feel good" club. It was pretty awesome. Just kidding. No I was not in clubs. But I was on the Drill ( Dance) team all 3 years of Junior High and then my Sophmore year in High School I was a cheer leader. Go Team Go.

19. Have you gained some weight since then? Well... The most ever I ever weighed in Jr High and in High School was 87 pounds... When I got really really sick I was down to I think 81.. and now since I am a Chunky MkChunk and weigh ..uhm alot more then that.. I would say....yyyyeeeesssss... Call me Mcbeefkins.

20. Who was your prom date? My Prom date was the same as my Homecoming date and it was Reed those were the only 2 dances I went to. Reed made them really fun and since we were friends and have known eachother ForEvuuHh we had alot of fun.

21. Are you planning on going to your 10 year reunion? Thats a big Hell to the No.

Attn: Future Husband

Hey future husband.. Future wife here. I just wanted to show you what I need from you when you purpose to me in order for me to say yes. Now befor you click on the link...I need you to not freak out. Remember that I am going to marry money.. hate to say it but its the only way I am going to get by in life outside of jail is if I marry money. So having said that.. When you see the price you may think its a little high but its okay.. you have money. Lots of it. So I have taken the stress of picking out an engagment ring off of you and I picked it out myself. I will really like it...no I will Love it, and will even act suprised like I had no idea what it would look like. You can tell people you picked it out yourself if you want. I won't tell. But this is the ring I want. You will probably get a big " Yes!!! Of course I will marry you!!" And then give a big hug and kiss... If that ring is not in the pretty little box you will be holding while your on your knee ( and if you don't get on your knee you will probably be kicked by me until you are on your knee..then you will ask me agian) my answer will probably be " uhm... did you not read my blog post 3 years ago when I posted the link of the ring I wanted!?" ...Now the purposal needs to be thought of by yourself. And I don't want to know its coming. And you better think of something really good! And really cute! That way I have a good cute story to tell to people when they ask " So, how did he ask you?"..Oh also.. stay tuned for my list of requirments you must meet to be my future husband.

Now for reals...

** I am really not one of those girls that needs a big huge ring and will marry money becuase I want it.. I am not that way at all.. I am a very simple girl who is probably the most non materialistic and high maintenance girl you will ever meet... All that matters to me is that you love me as much as I love you and that you treat me like a princess..oh and that you really DO want to be married.. and not pretend that you do. Its not about a big ring and big purposal!! Buuuuut come on! That ring is Be-A-uuutiful and who wouldn't want that on their ring finger?" Oh ps. I designed it myself. Uhh Thank you.


Now.... for the RiNg!!! .. Oh I'm so excited! Drum Roll Please!!....... Click...Right......HERE to see the ring!!! oooooooooo aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!

Uhh..Could you go to your room and do that? Thanks.

At the hotel we have alot of guests stay that are here viting their kids that are at Schools like Heritage School and Provo Canyon. Schools for troubled youth. When the students have the privilege to leave campus they get to come and stay with their parents. Sometimes when you see them in the lobby or at breakfast or whatever you would not even be able to tell that there is a problem. But SoOoMeTiMeS you get to see the problems with the parents and the troubled kids.

I got to see it this morning.

Here is the problem. Troubled student has an internet Myspace boyfriend. ( Apparently they have been talking for 3 years.."Come on mom 3 years!!!") She is writting him an email on the lobby computer, and wants to give him the address of her school here and her house so he can send her stuff.

Mom says: " NO!"

Troubled child says: "But But he won't give it out to anyone else! I Promise! I know him! Do you want to call him and ask him. He won't give it out to anyone else and he won't come to the house or dads house mom pleeeeeeeeeease."

Mom says:" No you know what happened last time they will come to the house I said no!!"

Troubled child: " I am NEVER coming back home if you do this to me!!! NEVER!"

( Nice threat by troubled child but if you think about it kid.. they sent you away. Your trouble. Maybe they don't want you back. . )


They continue to have this same argument about the internet boyfriend not getting their home address and they are just screaming at eachother in the lobby. Like they are at their own home, with no one around them and no one else listening to them scream at eachother.

Its really sad. Really..really..sad.

Having said that.......I know it is my job to go to them and say " Uh..I am sorry to interupt but unfortinatly we have other guests in the lobby who might be disturbed eating their breakfast so if you wouldn't mind going up to your room or going outside or lowering your voies."
Yeah.. that would be my job to do that. But I don't. Why you ask? Becuase I am entertained by it. Sad..but true. Usually standing at the front desk listening to people in the lobby I hear business people say things like " Well John the numbers are down!" or " What is her problem why did she not turn those papers in?" Things like that... Nothing to exciting.. So to here THIS .. its entertaining. But sad.

The point of this blog is that I am greatful that my parents never sent me away to a school for troubled youth. Not that I ever deserved it. I was an angel child. =) And I am glad that I did not grow up in a family where we scream and yell at eachother. I was never even grounded ( and that probably was deserved a time or two.) I am glad that I grew up with awesome parents that were not crazy and they are probably glad that I was not a hell child. Most of the time. Anyways although it keeps me entertained when they argue it makes me really sad to see that familes go through that. I just don't get how you can disrespect your parents like that. Even if they are " Physco." I am greatful that I have a good relationship with my parents and that we never go through that and I did not grow up in a family where screaming and yelling and arguing is normal. Thanks Famdamily. Love Loves =)

Things you should know

While working at this beloved hotel that I look forward to coming to everyday I have come up with a list of things people should know about staying at a hotel so that you don't annoy the front desk person like me. So get your Lisa Frank notebook and your smelly jell pens out and take notes..becuase if you dont...you are never allowed to stay at the Orem Hampton Inn and Suites as long as I work here ( which will probably be the rest of my life) ...here we go.. * Mario Voice*

• You don't need to come to the front desk to check out. We already have your credit card on file...we took it when you checked in. You signed when you checked in. You got your reciept under your door the morning you checked out. You don't need to come down to the front desk and say " Yeah I need to check out of room ___" and when I say .."(Giving you the stink eye) Did you get a reciept under your door.." and you say " Yes.." Then that is your copy... you don't need to sign it you don't need to bring it down to me and show it to me you don't need to give me your keys.. just go. Thanks.
• Your room keys do not save your personal information or your credit card information. Its impossible. There is no way for it to be coded into your key. Thats all I am going to say about that. Becuase its stupid for someone to even think that therfore its stupid for me to write about
• There is no such thing as a " Lost and found" Department. If you leave something in your room...Housekeeping will get it. Ask for housekeeping. Not Lost and found.. no such thing.
• If you had a problem with maintence, housekeeping, breakfast, or whatever...remember that the person standing at the front desk did not cause the problem. They stand at the desk all day.. they didnt forget to clean your room, they didn't make the pool cold, they didn't make it so you have no hot water for a shower... so don't be so mean to them and take it out on them. Its not fair that just becuase they are standing at the desk they get the brunt of the problem. Not fair at all.
• Listen to what the person says when they answer the phone. When I say " Thanks for calling the Orem Hampton Inn how can I help you" Its REALLY annoying when you say " Uh.. yeah is this the Orem Hampton Inn?"..Yeah just said that!
• If a Travel Agent books your room and when you come to check in your reservation is all screwed up..remember that your TRAVEL AGENT booked the room. The hotel does not even see your reservation until the day you check in. They don't do anything with your reservation until you are physcially standing there getting checked in. So say perhaps you wanted a non smoking room and you were booked a smoking room... the hotel did not do that... your travel agent made the reservation.. so get made at your dumb travel agent who booked you the wrong room.. not the hotel... not the front desk person... be nice to us!!
• Just because you booked your room 4 months in advance does not mean you are entitled to a 8am check in. I don't care when you booked your room.. check in is at 3pm... Thanks bye!
• When making a reservation.. The person your talking to on the phone does not need to know your life story about why you need a reservation.. or when asking for a late check out they dont need to know why you need a late check out. Ask your question, make your reservation or whatever .... thats it.
• It is really rude when you are walking by the desk and you have a question and you can clearly see the desk agent is talking to someone on the phone but you continue to start asking your question to the person anyway while they are still on the phone.. they can't talk to 2 people at once... wait your turn THEY ARE ON THE PHONE!

Well honestly I could go on and on with this list but its just making me think about everything that I hate about my job so I am just going to leave it at that.

Flava Flav!

Yo Dawg. I have not really blogged about anything important lately. Not that anything I put on my blog is important but here is whats going down in holliwood land....

The picture above was taken with my new camera phone! Yes I finally got a new phone and a new number... ( And yes Its a Utah number! Wahoo!) Hopefully those of you who are important got the Memo on that. And by memo I mean the text message that I sent out saying " Hey this is Holli.. This is my new number so call and send me love notes here!"...If you did not receive that message about my new number let me know I might have missed a few people...If I want you to have it I will give it to you.. If you don't receieve a message from me with the new number..I probably don't like you. Sorry if that hurts your feelings. This is my new phone.. Its ugly and I hate it.. its a piece of sheeeyite. It has not been working very good but oh well whatev! Its a Utah number Yah Yah!








My wrist is still broken. Probably will be for a while ..I just broke it 4 days ago. It hurts like a mofo and you can see the entire bone like sticking out of my skin. Its pretty discusting..I should probably just stop looking at it.



I have developed a new love for lipsmackers. I dont know why. My favorite kind has always been Strawberry Kiwi Rocket. I can't find it anywhere. I even went to the Mall today to see if I could find it. Ugh, I hate the mall..If anyone finds it.. let me know where you found it so I can go buy it!!




I am almost done with the first section of the blanket that I am knitting. I just have to add a few lines of black to it and then I can start a new section! Yay! Its going to be kick ass! Here is what I had done befor I started adding the last part of black to it. Yes.. I know. Its awesome... and yes I know.. I have no life.







Someone I care about alot left the other day for Boot Camp. Even though he can't read this and if you ever do I know you will think I am crazy girl but I don't care. I still want him to know that I am thinking about you. I know things are still not great with us but you really mean alot to me and I hope we can be ok agian. You are awesome and such a good guy. I really did mean it when I told you that you will be in my thoughts and prayers every day. I know that you will do great...you always are. Even though things were not great with us toward the end I know I said alot to you that I will never forgive myself for and I hope you know I didn't mean any of it and if I could take it all back I would in a heartbeat. I want to Thank you for everything you did for me. You took me out of a really un happy and bad place in my life. You made me realize that not all guys will treat me as bad as one of them did. You treated me very good...like a princess..Even though you said you didn't mean for it to happen I truly did fall in love with you. I still am your not an easy one to get over. Even though I was a Beeyotch and you were a jackass befor you left.. you still mean everything to me. And Remember thats just our thing.. We bicker. You are fun to argue with and I am fun to piss off. We have done it as long as we have known eachother. =) I hope that you are safe. I miss you. I wish you would have let me say goodbye. Good luck I hope you get what your looking for out of this. I hope I get to see you soon. Until then.. I hope you think of me when you rub your ear lobe. Be safe and God Bless Love. XoXo


Uhm what else is new. Oh I am going to Idaho Falls next week. We go every summer to watch the baseball games. This year will be different Meagen won't be there. I am sad but I am excited for her to see Chris. Actually I have not decided if I am going to go for sure or not though. Even if I don't I am still taking the time off of work. Hehe =) I am pretty sure I will go though. I think it would be good for me to get out of the house and go have fun and get my mind off of alot of things. Hopefully that will do the trick! If not I might have a breakdown and end up in the looney bin. KooKoo KooKoo

While I was at the mall today I saw this Kiosk ( oh my gosh did I spell that right.. if I did GO ME GO) and it was all Twilight stuff.. They had the cutest shirt there that says CULLEN 13... Super cute I think I will go buy it. Or maybe some nice person could buy it for me. =) I do love presents!


Oh here is something else I want to blog about. Things that I do NOT think are funny. When people see my wrist casted and they say things such as:

" Did you hit your boyfriend?"
"Did the boss not give you a raise and so you hit him"
" I Wonder what the other person looks like"
" I told you to stop fighting people"

These things are not funny. And attention to everyone who has said something like that to me: You are not clever. I hear those stupid comments all day long. So don't think that your the first person to say something funny to me. Even if it was funny I would not laugh. My wrist is broken... and it hurts. Go away.

I think I am done with this post now. I will leave you with one of my favorite songs ever. Its from Greys Anatomy ... and I love. Thanks by.

"Grace" by Kate Havnevik

I'm on my knees only memories are left for me to hold

Dont know how but Ill get by Slowly pull myself together

Theres no escapeSo keep me safeThis feels so unreal

Nothing comes easily Fill this empty space

Nothing is like it seemsTurn my grief to grace

I feel the coldLoneliness unfoldLike from another world

Come what may I wont fade away But I know I might change

Nothing comes easily Fill this empty space

Nothing is like it was Turn my grief to grace

Nothing comes easily Where do I begin?

Nothing can bring me peace Ive lost everything

I just want to feel your embrace

I love you

I love you

I love you

Worst movie....EVER

Made my..LIFE!!

So I found out today... that......TWILIGHT COMES OUT ON NOV. 21 now!!!! YAY YAY!!! It was not suppose to come out until December 12th! Oh my gosh that just made my life! I can't wait!!

Why Me

Why Me? Why did I have to break my wrist? It wasn't enough to have a black an blue busted up shin from being hit by a foul ball at a baseball game. ( Even though that was my fault for knitting and not paying attention to the game) .. But still COME ON!?! And from a box of toner cartridge falling on it? COME ON!?! I need a better story. Really life could not get any crappier!!..... Atleast I can still knit!

Watcha Soon!

Oh Housewives..How I will miss you. I have finished 3 seasons of you and now I must wait until the 4th season comes out in a few weeks. I don't know what I will do without you. I do not have another show to put in while I knit or eat muffins with Meagen that I have not already watched. I will be lost with out you. Susuan.. I will miss your spastic clumsy things that you do...good choice picking Mike. He is hot. And Ian was annoying. Really got on my nerves. And Bree... how I will miss your crazy family problems. I think you should have left Andrew out on the streets but I do like how he is now Gay. Lynette...Sorry to hear about your Cancer. And your new daughter is a Beeeyotch! She ratted you out to Tom! And Gabby.. Cute little Gabby. Your new husband sucks. Shoulda stayed with Carlos and made lots of babies with him.. he will be a good dad. And he protects you and knows what kind of flowers he needs to send you depending on the situation! How cute is THAT? I will miss you Housewives...And I can't wait until I get to watch new episodes of you! I can't wait to know if Edie is really dead or not.. I hope not... she is slutty mcslut and I love her! Anyways.. I am on the hunt for a new show to watch. But don't worry housewives. No one will replace you. Oh but I don't love you as much as I love Greys Anatomy. Your following very close in second place though.

LOSER

Wanna know whats depressing? I will tell you. When I am looking on my friends blogs and I see their friends lists on their side bar. All of their friends have their names and then their husbands names, and I am the only one that just says "Holli" ...no husband..no boyfriend.. nothing. Just Holli. I am the loser friend on everyones sidebars that just has my name and not mine and someone elses by it.. Lahooosaaheeer ( that says loser..like on liar liar... yeeeah)

Broken

So... I broke my wrist agian at work today. ( Yes the same one I broke 2 years ago from a plastic tray falling on it) A 20 pound box of toner cartridge fell on top of it this time. The ligament tore off the bone. So I had a pretty good day. Wouldnt you? Oh and what made my day even better.. they put me in a cast... thats not even pink. My day has been awesome. Oh BTW It took me like an hour to type this... you might not hear from me for another 4-6 weeks depending on how I heal.. I can't type with this stupid ugly not pink cast. I think I will go cry now.

Wish Me Luck

So I am on a hunt for a new job! I have my first interview next Tuesday. It is for an Office Assistant job at a Doctors Office down in Provo! Wish me luck! I hope I get it becuase todays like today at the Hell Hole Hotel makes me want to pull my hair out kick all of my co workers where it hurts and just scream and leave. But... alas... I can not do that until I have another job. So hopefully if I do not get this Doctors Office one I will find one sOoOoN!! And if they think I am giving 2 weeks once I do.. They have got anotha thing comin! =)

Yarning Party

Since we don't know how to really knit we yarn. ( Well.. I call it yarning) With our Knifty Knitters! Since we started bringing them to the baseball games we have even gotten other people interested in it and they have started bringing their knifty knitters too! Its a big yarning party at the baseball game! But at home Meg and I have yarning parties in my room. Marley sits with us and we watch Desperate Housewives. ( Yes you can see it playing on the tv in the background in one of those pictures) And sometimes Beau and Buddy will watch with us... They say they don't want to yarn with us but secretly I think they do. =) We are awesome.... I mean come on. Yarning parties. Does not get more awesome then that.

So aside from how FUG I look in that picture.. look at my cute blanket that I am knitting! Or as I call it.. Yarning. I know its so cute. In my previous post I declared my love for fake knitting ( yarning ).. Well I am working on a new blanket! Its really cute I have not gotten very far on it but it is going to be very cute. I have to make 4 very long ones and then tie them all together so it makes a big blanket! But its all going to be pink and black and I am so excited!...Yes I am yarning at a baseball game. Maybe that is why I got hit by a foul ball in the shin and then in the thigh. I was not paying attention to the game I was yarning. =( My poor shin... But very cute blanket!

Mesquito MADNESS

Fishing Pole: $20.00

Utah Fishing License: $8.00

Utah Lake Admission Fee: $9.00

The experience of being attached by bugs so badly it makes you have a panic attack: Priceless.

I don't even know how to start this post. I guess I am just going to dive right in. So as most of you know each summer we have Orem Owlz players that live with us. This year our players names are Buddy and Beau. Sweetest guys you will ever meet. L.o.v.e them! Well they had the day off yesterday and so they decided to go fishing! When I was a young lad I liked to go fishing in my grandma and grandpa's pond. Now the only fishing I do is on my nintendo Wii. Anyway, So I have been really depressed the past few days and pretty anti social, so my big brothers ( Beau and Buddy) being the sweet guys they are asked if I would go fishing with them. After a long discussion and a few agreements I decided that I would go. My one condition on going was that we had to be home no later then 10:30 pm ( I am old fart and like to go to bed early) So Buddy, Beau, Meagen, Myself and my Mom all jumped in the Rodeo and we were off. Like I said the only fishing that I do now is on the Wii and since I don't think that my Nintendo controler would help me much at a REAL lake with REAL fish we had to go and get Meagen and I one. ( These ones were not near as fun... It did not vibrate when I got a catch nor did it have light up features when I casted it out) So we got to Wal Mart and Beau and Buddy picked out our poles ( Do Meagen and I look like we know which Poles to pick?) They did good though they were sure to make mine Pink! So thank you Beau and buddy. We got on our Fishin license and we were our way!

At this point my mind was off of everything and I was feeling very outdoorsy very Crocadile Dundie and I was very excited to go Fishing! On our way to the Lake Me Beau and Meagen were having a very fun time in the back seat Laughing and quoting lines from our favorite show F*R*I*E*N*D*S!! ( I guess I made Tator Totts!)

We got to the Lake and Buddy and Beau started setting up and getting our reels ready ( is that the word.. reel.. I dont know. I didn't learn the fishing Lingo) My mom took pictures and Meagen and I .. just.. sat..there... oh yeah we played with Ducks.

Once we got all set up I start to cast out! I casted out maybe 3 times. I was out in the water for about 10 minutes...and then... it happened. It was like a bad horror movie. The sun went down and the moon came out. It was dark. I heard them buzzing. Buzzing all around me. Everywhere I looked... Bugs.. Red ones. Big ones. Buzzing ones. I am getting the chills just thinking about it. I pulled my hood over my head and thought to my self " No.. I am going to catch a fish and have fun I am not stopping becuase of a bug." I just decided to reel my line in and move to a different spot. I walked over to the other side of the pier and casted out agian. They were even worse. I started to freak out a little bit. Not a lot just a little bit. I reeled in and decided to just maybe watch for a while. I started walking to the car and the bugs were EVERYWHERE. They were surrounding me. I looked behind me to the side of me and the front of me I was just circled by thousands of mesquitos and discusting bugs. They were so loud. I could feel them in my ears down my shirt in my hair they were everywhere. I started to really freak out and started to hypervinalate. I just dropped my pole and I started running to the car. Once I got in the car I could hear them outside the windows there was atleast 200 of them on the front window. The buzzing is what really freaked me out. Meagen saw me in the car freaking out and ripping my clothes off to get the bugs off of me and so she came and sat in the car with me. She thought it was the funniest damn thing and started laughing at me. I went into a full on panic attack...crying,shaking,screaming, wanting to throw up I was shaking my head and my hair and taking my clothes off to get them off of me. I even peed my pants a little! Just a little bit....Think I am kidding about this panic attack. Here is proof. ( Sorry about the soft porn one.. but the bugs were down my shirt. Oh and the one of my "special place" was Meagen thinking it would be funny to take a picture of how I peed my pants.. but it was just a little =)...Why am I sharing this? )



(There is a crack in the window becuase the window will not roll up so I had to stuff a bag in it so the bugs would not fly in)

See..I told you.. Panic attack. After my mom and Meagen calmed me down and they stopped laughing at me Meagen and I stayed in the car the rest of the night. And by rest of the night I mean we were in the car for an hour and a half. Awesome. Meagen and I did have fun though taking funny pictures after I was calm ( .. oh side note there is a video of me when I first started going in a panic attack and I am yelling for my mom to go and get my fishing pole I just left on the ground .. it will be coming soon.. I recommend watching it.) Here are the rest of the pictures from the night. Please do not laugh at how Rotten Face Sally I am.. Seriously I had a very rough and horrible fishing experience. Panic Attacks bring out my ugly side. Obviously.

It was probably 107 degrees in the car that is why we are all shvetty. ( thats sweaty) Haha ROTTEN!

On a happier note. Congrats to Buddy who caught the only fish of the night. It was very nice! Go team Buddy!

Thanks to Buddy and Beau who took us fishing and helped us get set up and everything! You guys are awesome! Sorry for my freak out. Oh and also. I think you guys are a little nuts for sitting out there with the bugs for so long. Love you though! =) Thank you for Meagen and my mom for helping me calm down ( even though you were laughing your asses off) during my panic attack. Thank you mom for going and braving the bugs to get my pole that I just threw down after I started running. Meagen thank you for hanging out with me in the car so I would not be alone. =) Love you =)
I spent the rest of the night in the shower for about 2 hours.

:(

How do you just leave and not say goodbye? I mean really. =(..more venting to come.

High Expecations Only Leads To Dissapointment

Attention to: Mono

"Mononucleosis (often called "mono") is an infection caused by the Epstein-Barr virus. Signs of mono include fever, sore throat, headaches, white patches on the back of your throat, swollen glands in your neck, feeling very tired and not feeling hungry. "

Dear Mono



Though I have enjoyed your company these past 3 months I am ready to say goodbye to you. You first spotted me when I was in the hospital having surgery. I don't know why you chose me. I was already very sick as it was and had already had 2 surgerys in less then a week. Great Timing. Thanks. I guess you were kind enough to wait to let me know you that you had gotten in me and started showing your symptoms a few weeks later. That is so like you Mono. You have to get yourself set up and comfortable in someone and then you start showing your symptoms about a month later. Real nice of you. It was fun at first to have you around when I could sleep all day long and no one could tell me to get out of bed becuase I have you. It was also fun when someone I dislike asked me to get them a fork and I licked it befor I gave it to them in hopes of passing you on to them. Oh and also It was a REAL joy having you with me while I was in California at Disneyland. I expecially loved when you made me want to do nothing but pass out and sleep the rest of the day after just walking across the parking lot of the hotel and getting on the shuttle to go to Disneyland... That really took it out of me and I had not even entered the Magical Kingdom yet. My dear friend I think its time for us to part ways. Sometimes I think that you have left me for good and then you suddenly make it clear that you have not parted with me yet. I thought I was feeling better and then Mono you just had to make me so tired the past 2 weeks. So tired that while at work I could just lay down on the floor and sleep, and when I get home all I do is sleep until its time to go to bed. You make me so tired that my body aches. You make it so hard just to get up and eat something becuase I am so tired. In fact... you make it so I don't want to eat at all. I guess I can thank you for that Mono, you have made me not have any appetite what so ever so I am not so much of an oinker. Mono, maybe we could be friends if you would only make me tired but you have to keep bringing your other friends in me to party without my permission. Last night for example you just invited your friends Sore throat, Headache, Coughing, and Body Aches over to party with you and it is really making me feel miserable. Please make them leave. How would you like it if I just invited my friends PINNACILIN and PREDNISONE to come over and play. Well. I guess it would not matter becuase for you Mono there is no cure. You are helpless. I am told to just let you run your course becuase you can not be treated with drugs. Why must you be so difficult? I have been a great hostess to you.. I have given you plenty of rest, fluids, kept your friend fever down with Tylenol and I have not eaten anything that is unhealthy for you becuase you make it so I don't want to eat at all. Mono I hate to tell you this but you have overstayed your welcome. They said you could last months befor you completely ago away but I am ready to say goodbye to you now. I usually hate goodbyes but I think in this case it won't be hard. You chose to join me when I was already sick and right befor summer. Needless to say you have made my summer not so enjoyable. I never want to do anything. I have missed alot of baseball games.. and thats a big deal. When I do go I lay on my moms lap and sleep.. and I only stay a few innings.. See what you have done to me Mono? Thats not fair. I have been nothing but nice to you and have tried to treat you so well. Please move on and find a new body to live in. You are no longer welcome in mine. I don't know why you have stayed so long with me. I don't even know how you got in. You are also known as the " Kissing diease" but when you worked your way into my body I had not kissed anyone for months and months. I would not be so upset with you if I had gotten you that way becuase then at least I would have been having fun while getting you =) Hehe. But no..You just set your little eyes on me at the hospital and said to your self " Self she doesnt look miserable enough I think I will pick her to spread my love to" Well I don't want your love anymore. I am sick of you. You need to leave. I don't want to feel tired all the time and I no longer want to have suprises like returning sore throats and headaches becuase of you anymore. Please pick a new body to play in. Preferably a body of someone I dislike. I will give you some names if need be. Thank you for spending so much time with me but I am afraid we need to go our seperate ways. I am not going to lie to you Mono and tell you its me and not you... becuase it most deffinitaly is you not me. I can't have you dragging me down anymore. You make me feel like crap and you are just so indecisive one week you just want to make me tired and then the next you spring on these surprises like bringing back Sore throat, Headaches, and Body aches. This needs to stop. I don't want you anymore. Don't take this the wrong way.. but your not a whole lot of fun.

Best wishes. The person whos body you are taking over,
Holli Ridley

Hehe

...Remember how I said I was off guys for a while.....I think I want to be on him.