Now don't be fooled. The cover gives you the idea thats it a love story of some sort. No. Not even close. What is it about? A school shooting. This book is amazing. It is so well written and has amazing quotes and is all about why this boy was led to do this shooting. I love it and must say as of right now is my all time favorite book, and I have not even finished it yet. If you ever need a good book to read GET THIS ONE! Now I am off to go and read some more!
Friday, November 28, 2008
Good Reads
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Gobble Gobble
- Parents who have taught me right from wrong, taught me how to love and treat others as I want to be treated. To always stick up for my self, never back down and always defend my self and people you love. Always have an arguement ready if I am in a debate. That family comes first no matter what. To be a hard worker and depend on yourself and family. To never be judgemental and always accept others for who they are. To speak whats on my mind and have an opinion. I am greatful for the relationship that I have with my parents. I know that I could go to them for anything and everything no matter what it is. Who I can hang out with them on a Friday night and have the best time ever. Who if I am in trouble I feel comfortable to go to them with my problems. I am greatful for my dad who has taught me to be chartiable. He would give his right arm to a stranger if they asked for it without thinking twice about it or asking why. He has taught me to be greatful for what I have and never complain because there is someone who is far worse then you are. A mom who has taught me to follow my heart and dream big. And no matter what life throws at you to stay positive and remember that everything happends for a reason. My parents have taught me that family is the most important thing in the world and to always be there for them and they will always be there for me. A mom who would stop whatever she is doing to be by my bedside if I am sick. I love my parents so much and they are my heros and role models. I look up to them in so many ways and I have so much respect and love for them. They both have been through so much but you never hear them dwell on it they are both so strong. And when I have my own family I only hope to be half the mom that mine is and I hope that I have a husband who is caring and loving to me like my dad is to my mom. The only boy a girl can trust is there daddy =)
- Sisters who are my BEST friends. I love Madison and Meagen SO much! I know that no matter what I am doing with them I will have a blast and that I could go to them with anything and they will always be there for me. I don't know what I would do without my sisters. I love that we all are so different but we can always tell what eachother are thinking and are about to say. We can finish eachother sentances and I know that if I could send them a text message with a random movie line or an inside joke they would get it and know what I am talking about right away. I can't go one day without talking to Meagen and I miss Madi so much. She is in California and about to be a mom and I know that she is going to be such a good mom. She is so caring of others and so pretective of the things and people she loves. She has the biggest imaginiation and the most hilarious since of humor she makes me laugh so hard. Meagen is so giving and talented and works so hard for what she wants in life. She is an amazing sister and friend. I can't even tell you how many times she has helped me with things without even being asked. She has done so many amazing things in life and I don't think she will ever know how much I look up to her. I love Meagen and Madi and I would be so lost and sad without them in my life. I am so greatful for the relationship I have with them and I would not change anything that I have with my sisters for the world.
- I am so greatful for such an AMAZING doctor who has saved my life on more then occasion. He is my number one Hero. He has helped me so much in the past 5 years of my life. Not just with my health but with person problems as well. There was a time where everything in my life was falling apart and going down the shitter and I went to see him for something and I just lost it and starting balling and he sat in the room with me for a good hour without getting up to leave and see other patients and just talked to me about everything and did not leave until he knew I was ok. He has given me the best advice of my life. I am so greatful for all the times he has worked so hard in making me better and making sure that every procedure, test, surgery, hospital stays went okay and that I was always being taken care of. He probably has a thousand patients but he always makes me feel like I am his number one priority. I am so greatful for him becuase he does not beat around the bush he will always tell me what is going on and what is going to happen. I am so greatful for him becuase I can be in the worst shape of my life and on my death bed but he can walk in to the room and I feel so much better becuase I know that he is going to take care of me and make sure that I get better. He has a huge spot in my heart and in my life I will never forget the things that he has done for me and my family. I honestly don't know what I would do without my Uncle James. ( Ps. He is not really my uncle I just see him so often he might as well be family)
- A job that knows me and knows about my health problems and that allows me to leave for a month on sick leave and they will always have my job waiting for me.
- Medicine
- Believe it or not I am greatful for all of the shitty things that has happened to me and everything that I have been through becuase it has made me the person I am today and everything has just made me stronger.
- I am greatful for 7-11
- The country that I live in that the freedom that I have. I am greatful for people like Alex Winder who are fighting for me to keep that.
- Blogs.. They keep me entertained at work.
- A running car that get me from point A to point B
- My parents allowing me to live in their home rent free
- LAUGHTER
- Movies
- Who I am
- My dog Marley
- Living in a state that has 4 seasons
- Moments that make me laugh
- Moments that make me cry
- Stars for wishing on
- The people who have come and gone in my life
- Dreams
- The ability to choose right from wrong
- Dance
- Feeling loved
- Loving someone
- Makeup
- Getting a good nights sleep in my huge comfortable sleigh bed
- The color Pink
- The church of Jesus Christ and Ladder day Saints
- My book of Morman
- Prayer
- That I have lived to see another day
- Repentance
- That I did not get married last year
- Alex for healing my broken heart..even though he broke after that. Ha. Jerk. =)
- Being comfortable at work because I know my job and what I am doing very well.
- Coke and Fruit snacks... pretty much what I live on.
- Greys Anatomy
- Trials
- My neighbors, The Doxey Family
- Summertime
- Baseball
- Britney Spears
- My family and the very close relationship that we have
- My friends at work who are always willing to help out and cover for me if I am sick.
- The ability to walk talk and see
- My cell phone
- Books
Well there you have it. I am kind of bored with this now so maybe I'll go read or.. something. Hope you all had a good "Gross animal on a platter day" I enjoyed my fruit salad and mashed potatoes.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Twilight Night
We saw it up in Salt Lake so we left a few hours early becuase we knew the line would be long and we wanted good seats. So when we got there it was perfect timing! They were letting people inside for our showing. Sweet! And then we sat in line for about an hour or so playing cards, eating movie theatre food. ( Oh and BTW I have another post about the douche bag who worked the consessions at the theatre. What an Jack ass. Emily do you agree?..We wanted to get him fired!) Also we laid in coffins.
Anyway.. They let us in the Theatre where this group of girls who were just asking for trouble when they cut RIGHT in front of everyone and they just BARLEY got there. Um.. Little girsl. Im sorry but you did not just cut in front of people who have been waiting HOURS in line. I was truly ready to rumble. I was screaming out " THEY ARE LINE CUTTERS!!! MAKE THEM GO TO THE BACK OF THE LINE!!" My mom was holding up her cane poking them in their backs.. I was a little upset.But.. I became even more upset when the movie started and the audience was all a bunch of screaming and laughing little girls. The movie...NOT a comedy..... But then I started laughing too... Not because it was funny becuase it was so STUPID!! OH MY GOSH! They slaughtered the book. They rushed everything, they made Edward out to be some Merv the Perv Creepo who is a freak ( But a very good looking one I might add.. I would still make a baby with him Hehe..) The movie was horrible. The scene where he gets in the Sun and he shines. .. What the hell? And the scene where he is jumping from one tree to the other " You can't defeat me!" ... Jumps to another tree " I am to strong for you!!" jumps to another tree " I AM A MONSTER".. agian.. What the hell?
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Zombie Girl
Most Common Side Effects
You should know that, like other medicines, LYRICA may cause side effects. In clinical trials, some of the most common side effects of LYRICA were dizziness, sleepiness, weight gain, blurred vision, dry mouth, feeling "high", swelling of hands and feet, and trouble concentrating. These side effects were often mild to moderate. A small number of patients in clinical trials stopped taking LYRICA because of the side effects. You should not drive a car or work with machines until you know how LYRICA affects you.
Seriously I have been on it for 2 days and I am not even kidding I have every single one of those. I am not someone who gets a new medicine and looks up everything about it on the internet to see what side effects they are and then freak my self out by thinking I have all of them. But this time I really do. I am so out of it. I am litteraly a walking zombie. I can't drive.. I went to work for a few hours..ha no way.. I can't even tell you what happened while I was there. I have no appetite I don't even remember the last thing I ate. I was at the pharmacy last night and I litteraly fell down I could not even walk straight. My mom had to hold on to me. At work Im pretty sure I screwed up a lot of peoples reservations because I could not concentrate it was like I forgot how to do everything.
And now I am on some antidepressant which is an upper and then on pain pills that are downers... I am a zombie. But good news! Apparently this antidepressant helps with OCD so maybe I won't have to lock the doors 7 times at night and lay out kidnappers clothes and look back at my garage door 3 times befor I drive away.. Lets cross our fingers!
Why did I just blog about this? Pretty sure I just made myself sound like a crazy druggy.
Whatever.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
" For a first kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss. Trust me, You don't want to. Cause when you find the right person for a first kiss, its everything."
Alex Karev
Greys Anatomy
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Writers Block..?
Monday, November 17, 2008
Ugh..
Not to copy the exact words my sister Meagen said a few days ago but I am in a bad place today. (Sorry for the word steal Meg) ... I am in a horrible mood that came on so quickly, and I don't know how to shake it. I have been at work since 7 am and its only 10:30 and since I have been at work I have gone from good mood nothing wrong or bothering me to pissed off mood and depressed with hurt feelings, and I swear I will attack the next person that talks to me.
I woke up this morning feeling like I slept really good, I had a pretty good weekend, I was going to try and have a good week at work and all of that quickly turned around.While at work I have been ignored, had a door slammed in my face, Talked to someone and they did not even acknowledge me, took on a big project without being asked and did not even get a Thank you, been disrespected and talked down upon and all I had to is put a smile on my face and nod my head. So ya its been a real awesome day.
And then I started looking at peoples blogs and I became really depressed. They all talked about how they either had an awesome weekend with their boyfriend, or they were sick and their husbands took care of them, or how their boyfriends became their fiances and then I thought about what I did on my weekend.. I watched tv and a movie with my parents. I have no one. And its really beggining to suck. Its really lonely, I hate being lonely.
No, I am not trying to throw a pitty party for myself or make people feel bad for me and write me a comment saying " Oh Holli one day you will find someone who will treat you right and you will find love" Please.. do not do that. There is nothing I hate more then going to someone to get advice or because I need to vent becuase I am sad and hearing that speech. SUCK IT! But.. it really sucks to have no one. To hate your job, To be the only child living at home so you can't even hang out with your siblings, to have friends who all either are married or have boyfriends so they don't really want anything to do with you unless they need something from you or secretly just feel bad for you. (I know that sounds mean..call me a bitch I don't really care but thats how I feel)
So lifes pretty awesome right now wouldn'tcha say!?
Thursday, November 13, 2008
For Me? You shouldn't have!
Then on Monday one of my managers here at work gave me a gift. Her name is Sarah and she is the Sales Director at the hotel. She went out of town last week to New Jersey and while she was gone we had a lot of teams and groups come in. Since she was not here she had given me the responsibility of getting all the contracts, taking all the calls, and everything set up and ready for them. So she had brought me a gift back from New Jersey to say thank you. It is so cool!!!
Thats right. You read that right. Its paper. Made out of Elephant Poo. HOW COOL IS THAT? The paper and the box it comes in is all made out of poo. I think its awesome. You can see the grass and everything in it. No it doesn't smell like poo if thats what your wondering. You can look at their website by CLICKING HERE. The website is actually really funny. Anyone who knows me knows that I love to write people notes, or thank you cards,reminder notes, anything like that so I will go through this paper fast! As soon as its gone I am going to use the little box it came in as a jewlery box! And the best part of all... ITS PINK! Thanks Sarah for my Poo Paper!This gift I did not recieve but it was brought into work for me. On Tuesday I was not feeling well so I left work around 11:00. The person that came in after me at 3:00 brought me in one of my favorite bannana slurpee!!! Since I was not there I did not get it, and someone else drank it for me but it was the thought that counts =) Thanks Brendon! I am sure I would have drank that slurpee right up!
This morning I went into work and checked my box, and there was a book with a card taped on it in there. Its a book called "Three Cups Of Tea"
I guess its about a mountaineer who ended up in an impoverished Pakistan village after he failed climbing K2. Once he left he promised everyone in the village to come back and build a school there for them. And he ended up coming back and building over 55 schools there. Its a testament to the power of the humanitarian spirit.
There is a qoute on the back of the book that I think is really cool it says " Here in Pakistan and Afghanistan we drink three cups of tea to do business; the first you are a stranger, the second you become a friend, and the third you join our family, and for our family we are prepared to do anything-even die"
I am excited to read this book. There was a really nice card that Dennis my front desk manager wrote to me. It really made my day and made me feel better about how I am doing in my new position. The Card Says " Holli, this book represents inspiration and you inspire me. Through your honesty, hard work and your desire to learn and grow, you have inspired me. You make me smile and you keep me sane! You help to keep my work load manageable. Thank you for all that you do. Dennis."
I thought it was really sweet. So anyway, those are all my gifts for the week! I feel so loved! Thanks everyone who made my week!
Oh and side note. Today my sister Meagen is brining me Lunch. Guess what lunch is today? A 7-11 slurpee and 2 taquitos! Yes! She knows her audience..
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Hi I'm Holli.. And I'm an addict
This my friends is a Go Go Taquito. From the Sev Aka 7-11. From that day on I have not been able to stop eating these. This addiction has taken me as far as paying with nickles and dimes to by 2 taquitos for $2.22. I don't have alot of money but the money I do have goes to these bites of heaven. I don't know how to stop. Its embarassing me. Sometimes I drive 3 or 4 extra miles just to go to a different 7-11 just so the employees at the one by my house don't suspect me of being an addict to their taquitos. Its not all of their taquitos. Just one particular kind. Jalapeno Cream Cheese. I can't stop eating them. The looks I get I when I go into purchase them. I try and disguise my self so they don't recognize me. But when they see me asking for my 2 Jalapeno Cream Cheese taquitos and my Bananna flavored Slurpee they know its me.
Thats right. The addiction doesn't stop at the Taquitos. The slurpees..They call to me. I can't overcome the pressure and the cravings for them. And agian its not all of them. Its just the bannana flavored ones. I can't stop craving them. From the time I wake up in the morning from the time I go to bed. This addiction is taking over. I once went into my room and counted 4 slurpee cups and 3 taquito bags.
I don't even know myself anymore. I try going to different gas stations Holiday, Chevron, Maverick any gas station that does not have rolling heating units with crispy heavenly taquitos and slurpee machines but I just can't stay away. I will do anything for these. Its like when I am driving and I drive by a SEV its like someone takes over my body and makes me turn the steering wheel to the 7-11. I knew I had hit rock bottom when I walked into the Sev on Center Street in Orem and the employee there saw me and walked right to the rolling grill and got my taquitos without me asking.. and then she rang me up for my slurpee as well becuase she knew I was getting that too.
I need help. I can't stop. Its changing everything about me. My looks.. I feel like such a heffer from eating these.. I know I look like a beefkins. All I eat is 7-11.. I don't know why I let my self get like this. I am always so careful about what I eat why would I ever allow myself eat from the Sev? Look at what it has done to me.
I need to find a Taquito and Slurpee Addiction group. I need to stop this.
Having said that. If someone were to bring me a bananna slurpee from the Sev right now.. they would be my new favorite person for life. I wouldn't argue if you brought 2 jalapeno cream cheese taqutios. They are 2 for $2.22! That plus a Meduim Sized Slurpee ( Bannana Flavored remember) it comes to $3.35.. Just an Fyi
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Seriously.
Best.
Night.
Ever.
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
I feel crazy.
Seriously.
Friday, November 7, 2008
So Yo So Yo Ho
Look at that picture. Please don't say anything about how Rotten Face Sally Alex and I both look. (Oh ps I am glad Alex is not able to get online to see that I just called him Rotten Face Sally Hehe) Anyway... Notice my left eye? How it kind of looks like Lazy Eye. Want to know why? Oh thats becuase I poked myself in the eye with a thumb tack that day. And guess what? I did it agian today. It hurts so bad. You can actually see the little red hole in my eye where I hit it. My eye is like bloody discustingly red. I can hardly keep it open. I did it while getting ready for work today. Oh your probably wondering why I had a thumb tack to my eye. Well. I blame my sister Meagen. She taught me that if you use a thumb tack to seperate my crazy long eye lashes then they will be as full and long like the girls on the commercials... My day did not start of great. I am just glad Alex is not here for me to say to him " I poked my self in the eye...agian" and him to say back to me " Dumb ass."
Last night I went to The Village Inn with Devin and Shawn. I can't even tell you how much I love these 2 boys. They are Uh-mazing! I use to hang out with them alot befor their missions and then they left and this is the first time I have been with them since they came home 5 months ago. I had so much fun with them and they are such good people. I love being around them they make me so happy =)
I have pulled a muscle in my neck today. It hurts. I am just beating myself up today good lord.
I don't know what the point of this post is. No one is probably even reading this so I am just going to end it. Bye bye now
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Go Me Go!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Rock The Vote
Make love not war. And vote for someone who will get Holli health insurance.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Happy Birthday Mom Dawg
Things I love about My mom:
- She takes care of me when I am sick. She is the best care taker. Even though she just laughs at me and says " What else is new?" When I say " Mom I think I am going to throw up!" ...She once took off a week of work to sit with me while I was in the hospital and watch Greys Anatomy with me...Or maybe it was just the Greys Anatomy she took work off for..
- She is so outgoing and friends with everyone. She can strike up a conversation with a random person at the store and then keep in touch with them for the rest of time!
- She is scrapper! She fights for what she believes in.
- She is such a hard worker and such a busy body. She hates to sleep, Watch Tv, Read.. She thinks its a waist of time and I think its funny.
- When she dies she wants to be buried with her dirt collection. Haha. Also she has litteraly said " There will be some serious haunting going on by me if ANY of you are sad when I die!"
- She is a littly crazy
- She won't get mad at me that I just called her crazy becuase she knows its true.
- When she uses a computer she double clicks on everything and its so funny!
- She is so talented from scrapbooking, to decorating, to drawing and caligraphy she is awesome at everything.
- She is one of my best friends and she totally acts like a 21 year old when I am with her not as my mom.
- She makes me laugh
- She will always tell you the truth on something even if its not what you want to hear.
- She is such a good mom and will be such a good Grandma..She once told me to go have sex so she could be a grandma... Uh ok mom.
- You never hear her complain. There is always someone in my family who is sick and dying but if she is the one who is sick and dying you never hear her complain about it.
- You would never be able to tell she has MS. She is always so bubbly and happy and sometimes just has waay to much energy for me to handle =) She never lets it show.
- She is such a hard worker. She never leaves for the day until all her work is done. I once broke my wrist at work and was sitting in her office crying telling her I needed to go to the hospital and she said " Let me just finish these phone calls then we can go" Good thing I wasn't dying.
- She cries in every Disney movie where the mom dies. Don't mention Little Nemo to her or she will lose it. Not even kidding. That is not a joke.
Happy Birthday Mom. Hope you have the best day ever! Love Loves