Comfort Items

Having an illness like Fibromyalgia you have to find comfort in anything you can. Becuase you never know when your going to wake up one morning but not be able to get out of bed 5 days later. You never know when a flare is gonna come or when you just feeling really really crappy and you don't know when you will feel better. A lot of people even the people closest to you don't understand what its like to have chronic pain. So for me when those days come I look for the things that bring me comfort the most.

 

MY PIG

My most comforting item is my pig. The pig doesnt have a name he is just known as my pig. This pig has gone threw just about everything with me. And it means the world to me because my dad bought it for me. When I was 16 I had surgery to have lumps on my breast removed. When I woke up from surgery ( which was one of the hardest surgeries to wake up to and I have had about 36 so I have some experience with waking up from surgery! Boobie ones are not fun!) But when I woke up and calmed down from being in so much pain I noticed that this pig was sitting on my stomach. I was like uhm... this is random? And then my dad said that he got it for me while I was in surgery. And it has been with me at every surgery at every hospital stay right next to me in bed I get so much comfort from this little pink pig. Anytime I am in the hospital the first thing I tell my family to bring me is my pink pig. In this picture I was in the ER for what we thought was meningitas ( again ) and I was still sedated from having my spinal tap. So anytime I am in the ER for something really serious like in the picture its with me! One time I was in the hospital for about a week and they transfered me to a different hospital I left my pig there. I freaked out. My doctor was nice enough to go to the lost and found during his rounds and get it for me and bring it to the new hospital I Was at. I absolutely love my pig. This is my number one comfort item!

SICK MOVIES

 

 

 

 

 

I have what my sisters and I call them " sick movies" We all have a couple of movies that we like to watch when we are feeling sick. Two of my favorites are " The Devil Wears Prada" and " The Divine Secrets Of The Ya-Ya Sisterhood" and last but certainly not least " Breakfast at Tiffanys"

 

My mom bought me The Devil Wears Prada when I was hospitalized for pain management right before I had surgery for yet another bout of endometriosis. I loved it. I cant even tell you how many times I watched it. I never watch it if Im not sick but when I am its one of my favorites and it keeps me calm. I also like it because its one that is just basically all talking so its quiet enough that I can fall asleep too. ( Except there is one scene where her cell phone rings 15 times yes.. I have counted 15 times. And for some reason the ring is super load and always wakes me up if I am asleep) Anyway this is one of my all time favorite sick movies.

Another one is Divine Secrests Of The Ya-Ya Sisterhood. I knew my family had this movie for a super long time and it just never looked interesting to me. But I had had surgery but the next day I woke up with what we think was the swine flu. ( My sisters and I call it the time I had the ebola virus it was so bad. ) And I was bed ridden for WEEKS.. which means I had watched pretty much every movie that we had. I had friends bring over movies for me to watch one of my sisters has over like 600 dvd's and she would bring me a new stack every day before work for me to watch. I was in need of new movies. So I decided to go threw all my familys movies and pick out ones that I  had never seen before. The first one I watched was this one. I absolutely LOVE this movie. Not only is it one of my sick movies but its one of my top 5 favorite movies! It was so good I was like really sad when it ended haha I think I even watched it twice in a row. If anyone needs a new movie to watch I would suggest this one! It is another one that is all quiet and mostly talking and has such a good story line and has some really funny one liners in it. Love love love this movie! It was really good and had me interested the moment the movie started and it kept my mind off of how I thought I litteraly going to die becuase of how sick I was! Also... saved the best for last" BREAKFAST AT TIFFANYS"!!!!!!!!! Ok if you have seen this movie you know why I dont even need to explain why its one of my favorites becuase its AMAZING! Who doesnt love Holly Golighty right?  This movie is amazing and also one of my top 5... even my top 3 favorites movies. Add this to your " sick movie" list!



I know a lot of people have comfort foods but when I am sick and in a bad flare or recovering from surgery or whatever it is a struggle to get me to eat or drink anything. In fact whenever I am sick I call my dad the fluid nazi because he comes in like every hour with a huge glass of water or whatever and stands there and make sure I drink it all and then comes back in an hour and makes me drink another one! Now becuase I am living in a different state whenever I am sick and talk to him his first question is " are you drinking plenty of fluids?" Haha I love my dad so much. And he is a hero to me. He too lives with chronic pain and has teached me how to handle it. I remember when I was 15 and I first got sick my dad and I stayed up all night long talking. He told me a lot about his childhood that I had never heard before, and how he knows what its like living with chronic pain, and how proud he was of me for handling so much pain and change in my life. That is a memory of my dad and I that I will always cherish.

 

I dont know about you but when I am sick or hurting or in a flare whatever... I dont want to eat. Anything. At all. I lose my appetite the pain is so bad that I don't feel anything else but pain so I dont ever feel hungry or crave anything I just dont want to eat period. My mom has had times where she has had to force me to eat. If theres one thing that I want to eat or drink when I am sick its usually gatorade. But I dehydrate SO easily. I cant even tell you the amount of times I have been hospitalised with dehydration. It only takes about 2 days of not eating or drinking anything that I am just done. I have muscle cramps, I have no energy whatsoever, I feel nauseated, I have no color in my skin my eyes are just dead inside. There has been twice where I was so dehydrated that my patasium got so low that my heart started to freak out. My heart rate was out of control high I felt like I was having a heart attack I was throwing up so bad You could like see my pulse in this huge vain in my neck I was put in an ambulance and taken to another hospital to be admitted. So Yeah Its a battle between not wanting anything to do with food or fluids but also trying to stay hydrated enough. Deffinitly a battle!

 

 

MY SISTERS

 



 

My two of THE MOST IMPORTANT people in my life. I can't even tell you how much I love my sisters. The things that we have gone threw together and the things I have gone threw they I know I wouldnt have made it out of without them. My sisters are the two most amazing sisters anyone could ask for. I really got lucky to have my sisters also be my two best friends. The top picture is one of my younger sister Madi and I and then bottom picture is of my older sister Meagen and I. These two help me get threw everything. We all love eachother so much but whats so great about them is that they help me in two different ways. Madi can get me to laugh even when all I feel like doing is crying. She has such a quick wit and is just the most hilarious person I have ever known. She is a mom so I have noticed that she is very protective of the people she loves. I know that she will always have my back and will probably kick your ass litteral... also verbally if you ever did anything to hurt me. She is amazing and someone I want by my side forever. Meagen is more of the nurturing type. She has been by my side numerous times while I was sick. She has taken care of me so many times I have lost count. About a year ago I was going threw something really major, I ended up in the hospital and usually my mom is the one that stays with me but she moved to another state so Meagen took her place. She made me feel so comfortable the entire week I was there. She never left my side she slept in the uncomfortable hospital chair every night next to me. She always knew what I needed and when I was feeling the worst. She has been a huge support system in my life I know that she will be on my side no matter what and will always be there to take care of me no matter how old we are. She is my person.

 

MY DOG FENWAY

 

My dog Fenway is deffinitly a huge comfort to me! He is always there when I need some cuddeling or just someone to listen ( No im not crazy I dont expect him to talk to back) I love him so much. We were ment to be together. He deffinitly keeps me on my toes but also gives me a reason to get up in the morning. I take him on 2 walks a day which is good for me becuase it makes me get out and get some excercise. He is such a cute little pup. Fenway is a chug ( Pug/chihuawa mix) I call him my little Love Chug! I love Fenway! I truly believe that animals know when something is wrong with you the can sence when something is wrong if your sick anything like that. I would recommend any one with any type of chonic illness to get an animal! They are just amazing!!!! I love Fenway so much I don't know what I would do without him!

 

What are some of your comfort items? Leave me a comment and let me know! Also if you have Facebook you can go LIKE mine and my fibro friend Rachelle and let us know what your comfort items are! The page is called Misses and Ms. Diagnosed

Thanks for reading! And keep fighting!

What fibro means to me

There is a contest going on for fibromyalgia awareness where people turn in photos of them or one they have taken describing what Fibromyalgia means to them. Now I am not doing this contest but I found some pictures of how I would describe what fibromyalgia means to me.

This is a picture of my sister Meagen and I. She doesnt have fibromyalgia but at the time she had a dislocated ( in her sleep! ) and was feeling pretty crappy. This was right before I was admitted to the hospital for Renal Failure. So I had that plus fibro on top of it sooo I to was feeling pretty crappy. So you ask what this has to do with fibromyalgia? Well, if you look at it and see the look on both our faces you can just tell how awful we felt and how desperatly lonely, and tired, wanting to give up, and just needing someone to be there with me I felt. Fibromyalgia can be a dark and lonely place. You feel as though people dont understand and you feel like you dont even know who you are anymore. Just having my sister there to lean on just gave me a feeling of comfort and support that I needed at that time. Everyone who is fighting the fibro fight needs that. Sometimes nothing else can help calm yourself and feel peace then just having someone there for you. People who have fibromyalgia and have pictures of themselves you can always tell if they are having a good day or a bad day and sometimes they try and put on a smile becuase you want to just keep telling yourself you're ok or just to hide how you truly are feeling. I am obviously not trying to hide anything in this picture. You can see the fear, the sadness, the pain and overall sickness. Becuase there are times where you feel nothing else but that.

But there are those days where you have a smile on your face becuase you want to remember how you felt good that day. Fibromyalgia doesnt have to be a negative thing all the time. We all have good days and a bad days and on the bad days you just have to remember that this too shall pass. You will have good days, and when you do remind yourself that you're okay. You can still feel like a normal person even if it is just for a day of half a day or half an hour. Appreciate the good days. Positive things can come from fibrmyalgia. This is a picture of my friend Rachelle and I. We both have fibromyalgia and that is how we connected. Ever since we met we have become good friends and we support and love eachother. That is very important to have and if it was for fibromyalgia I never would have met her or other people who are very important in my life and have helped and supported me threw a lot of stuff! I know sometimes its hard to stay positive trust me I get it. And its impossible to feel positive every day and no one expects you too expecially if you have a disease like fibro that puts you in chronic pain all the time but negativty can be a toxic thing. Try and find your positive that has come from fibromyalgia.

Remember that if you are reading this and you have Facebook to please like Rachelle and I's page. We really want to bring awareness about fibromyalgia and have a place of support and hope that fibro patients can go to. Thanks for reading and remember there is hope! The Facebook page is called Misses and Ms. Diagnosed

Reminds me to keep the faith

Lately I have been having a really hard time both physically and mentaly. I don't know what is making me feel so bad and just not myself but I am really struggling. The therapy I am doing is really hard on me... It might not seem like a lot to a " normal" person but to someone like me who has fibro it has been really hard. I was doing really good for a couple weeks and then I got sick with tonsilitis and I just feel like I have had a huge set back. I feel so much pain, feeling a lot of depression and fatigue. To help with the depression I have been doing some knitting to take my mind off of things. I really enjoy knitting and I have also kept my fibro fighter rock close to me to remind me that I am not alone. There is hope and I am doing the steps to start getting myself healthy again. I have given these rocks to my close fibro friends Rachelle and Janet and I would love to make one for anyone else who is fighting the fibro fight. Thanks for reading.

Surviving

It has been a pretty tough week. Sometimes it is really hard to stay positive while going threw something like I am going threw. Last week I got some pretty disapointing blood test results. Last year I was hospitalized for having very elivated liver enzymes. And on Friday I got my results back and it showed that my liver levels were at about the same spot that they were last year. I was really upset and I just tried to fight back tears and I was doing okay until the nurse that was standing next to me performing this procedure on me set the tools that she was using down and said " Ya know, I think we just need to stop here for a second a take a deep breath and try some hug therapy." I just started crying and even though she and the doctor are basically strangers to me it felt so good just to have them understand and tell me that its okay to cry and be upset. I have been working so hard and doing everything I can and doing all that is asked of me to change my health and to get a test result that tells you what you are doing is not enough is so hard to hear. And to be honest it is really scary to know that my liver is just as bad as it was when I was hospitalized becuase of it. They don't know what it is thats causing this they have done every test they can think of every blood test everything and they don't know why. I saw my doctor today and found out that I have tonsilitis which in itself is a step back and it a huge problem of its own. I am suppose to have my tonsils out but I keep having set backs... anyway.. I found out that the next step is to do a liver biopsy to help figure out why my liver enzymyes are so high. I know I have my family and close friends but even people who I thought would understand and support me I kind of feel like they don't really think what I am doing is that big of a deal and dont really care and that is really hard. So it was really nice to just have a hug from the nurse and the doctor tell me they are on my side and will do everything they can for me. It made me start to think about what it would be like to not be sick. How different my life would be, what I would be doing, the people who would be in my life and what its like just to feel normal.

I started making a list of all the things that sickness has brought upon me and taken away from me. But then I started to think that it wont do any good or change anything to dwell upon it. This is my life. Sickness has made me who I am. It has made me stronger then I think I ever would have been had I not gotten sick. There are a lot of people in my life that I never would have met had I not gotten sick. I truly believe that I was given sickness to live with to help others threw their sickness. I have the ability to connect with people and I have been taught by being sick that everyone has a story. You should never judge someone on the look they have on their face or the attitude that they may have becuase everyone has a story. You don't know why they are the way they are. You don't know what they have gone threw in their life or just in that day. I know that when I am having a bad day and feel really horrible I can come off as the biggest bitch in the world and you don't want to cross me but thats not who I am. People who truly know me know thats not who I am.. at all..My sickness and trials has had a lot to do with who I am today but sickness is not everything I am. I have a lot of other things about me that have nothing to do with sickness. Something I need to work on though is showing other things about me that dont have to do with my health. I know lately all I have been able to show and talk about is my health and I need to work on that. Thats not all there is to me, but like I said I am greatful for some of the things that sickness has given me. I don't want to be a sad sick person my whole life. I want to get better and let other people get to know what else there is to me and show them that there is more to me. I need to try and stay more postive and remind myself at times that there is hope and that there will be a day when I can start letting people in without feeling like I will just be a burden to them. Becuase right now I feel like thats all I am. I was watching the movie Georgia Rule the other night and I heard a quote that said " We can all survive, we just don't have to be so damn sad doing it." I think that is so true and something that I need to remember..

Reading over this post I feel sorry for everyone else who reads it.. its so random and all over the place and probably has no point what so ever but thats okay... I am writting how I am feeling and thats all that matters. Thanks for reading.

Evaluation Situation

So I had my evaluation with my Fibro clinic doctor. I had full body X rays, a neurological exam, I am going to be having blood work done on monday but I thought I would do an update on what I found out from the evaluation. And what I found out..... was a lot of reasons why I hurt like hell! As we all know Fibro is an invisable illness. It does not show up on X rays, blood work, MRI's anything. Which makes it very hard for people including doctors to believe that it is real. Well, again I say... its freaking real. However, I now have some VISIBAL issues. The doctor said that I have some obvious neurological issues going on but it could be caused by medication that I am taking. One of the goals we are working toward with this program is getting me off of as much medication as possible. So we won't know more about the neurological stuff until later. Also about a year ago I had a CT scan while I was in the ER and they found a cyst on my brain. We were told at that time that its nothing to worry about but my doctor wants to take a look at it and see if it actually may be something that we need to worry about. We are doing a lot of oxygen therapy becuase my oxygen levels are severely low which apparently is common in fibromyalgia patients.

So I did say that I wanted to write and update while going threw this program so I am gonna post the pictures of the X rays that they took and explain the visibal problems that I found out I have.

( I know it totally looks like those are my boobs and they very well might be.. he said it was just the shields they put on on my chest.... to me it still looks like nips. And if it is well .. whatever )

Okay so in this X ray as you can see where the red lines are the bottom of my spine is curving. So thats not good but explains why my lower back hurts all the time.

In this X ray you can see where the vertibrays are fusing together. The circles show how much space should be between each one and as you ans see the space around the bottom circle is much smaller then the top circle. So thats not good either.

This x ray on the top is not mine. The x ray on the bottom ( the one with the red marks on it) is mine and its obviously of my neck. The one on the top is an x ray of what a healthy neck should look like. It should have a curve in it like that one shows. My x ray obviously shows that there is no curve whatsoever. Which is really not good. Your neck supports your head which weighs about the same as a bowling ball. When you have no curve in your neck like mine your muscles are forced to support your head which causes a lot of pain becuase its a lot of strain on those muscles. It also can cause the ligaments to tear and scar tissue to form which an also cause pain. And thats what has happened with my neck. So none of that is good. But again... also explains a lot about all of my horrible neck pain.

Things are really hard. It has only been a week and this is so hard on my body physically and mentally. Suprisingly the diet has actually been pretty easy. I have not had any really super bad ( I mean.. don't get me wrong I would give anything to drink a fraeking coke right now) but it really hasnt been bad and honestly I can already feel the difference its making eating better and drinking water. There is litteraly only about 7 things I can eat. Lettuce, any kind of meat I want ( but I only eat chicken), grapes, apples, and cucumbers. ( I know your so jealous of my foods ) I will be on this diet for 3 weeks while I am taking all the medicine that is suppose to help repair my intestinal track. And then after the 3 weeks I can add a little to the diet like rice and certain beans and then I will start the medication that will help detox my liver. I know I said the diet has been suprisingly easy but its more of my routine that is really hard. I am use to waking up opening a coke or sprite taking my pills and then around 1 or 2 in the afternoon eat something and then I am usually done eating for the day. I will sometimes snack on stuff or eat something before I go to bed but I am really not use to eating 3 meals a day plus snacks and having to drink a certain amount of water. Its like my entire routine and everything is just being turned upside down and its really hard to adjust.

So after the evaluation the doctor has said patients usually work with him for about 3 months but he said I should plan on working with him for about 6. Right now I am going in 3 times a week and its really rough. I know all of this is what I need. I know it is I have no doubt about it. I have faith in the doctors and this program and I know that it will only do good and help me get my body and entire life healthier. I mean the way I was going I truly believe I would not make it long in life. I really dont. But Im not gonna lie.. right now the faith I have in all of this does not make it easier. Like I said I have only been doing this a week and I feel like everyday I wake up hurting and feeling even worse then I did the day before. I know things are going to get worse before they get better but I am just really having a hard time. The support from my family and my close friends are amazing. They are all so supportive and knowing they are proud of me and happy that I am getting the help I need makes me feel really good. My mom and Joe are amazing helping me keep track of all my medicine making sure I have everything I need. No matter what time it is they are always there ready to get me an ice pack or heating pad. They are also doing the diet with me ( Not as hard core as I am.. I mean they are have a selection of about 10 things to eat compared to my 7 hahah ) They go to appointments with me and there to give me a hug when I start crying because I am in so much pain the doctor is putting on my body. Everyone who cares about me is there to help and give love and support and I appreciate it so much. They are there to remind me that things will get easier and this is for the best. It will be worth it in the end. 

On days like this I just have to keep telling myself that.... It will be worth it in the end. I am hungry and in a lot of pain I am tired from never being able to sleep I am frustrated that I got sick in the first place I am just frustrated. But I am leaning on the support of my family. My mom, dad, Meagen, Madi, Joe, Sam, Rachelle, and of course my love chug dog Fenway. They love me and I love them and I have to remember that they want me around as long as possible and I need to do this to be there for them as much as they are there for me right now. I'll keep everyone updated in a few days. =) Thanks for reading! And for everyone who is reading this and also is a Fibro Fighter.. Keep fighting.  There is HOPE. And when I am finished with all of this I will be proof of that!

( Also, fibro friends, blog stalkers, family, whoever you may be if you want updates on me and also my friend Rachelle who is also going threw a very hard time right now you should check out our Facebook page misses and Ms. Diagnosed )

A Change Is Gonna Come

I know I havent posted anything in like ... forever but I am about to make a big change in my life and I thought now would be a good time to start blogging again. Im sure I don't have any readers anymore so even if this is just used as an outlet or journal thats okay too. But hopefully maybe I will gain some more readers and mabe offer some hope to others out there that might be in the same situation I am in.

Most of you know that for the last 11 years I have been suffering with the miserable disease Fibromyalgia. Since being diagnosed I have been having a really hard time with a lot of things. Dealing with having to give up the things I love like daning becuase my body just cant do it anymore. Losing friends becuase they were sick of me never being able to go out with them becuase I didn't feel well. Dealing with the doctors and other people who don't believe that fibromyalgia is real. ( Let me tell you... it IS real. The pain and everything else IS REAL.) Trying to find which medications work and which ones don't. Dealing with the stress and anxiety of not knowing what I am going to feel like when I wake up. Its been a really hard time.

Even though the last 11 years have been a hard time this past year has been the worst of them. The fibro is taking over my life. Its no longer something I live with its something that is stopping me from living at all. Its gotten to the point that I have given up fighting it and I have just let it take over. I have just dug a dark hole of depression that no matter what is going on I can't get out of it. I no longer have good days. Every day is a bad day. Its not longer just a physical sickness its become mentally sick as well. My body has turned on me and its attacking itself and I don't have the energy to fight it anymore. The only thing I do is take the medication given to me each day and live like a physically hurt zombie. I am just walking threw life I am not living it. Someone recently said to me that all the damage I have done to my liver and body with all the medication I take and have been taking for 11 years now I probably won't make it to the age of 30. I am 25 yeas old now. It stung and it hurt but what was even more frightening to me was the fact that I thought to myself " ya know, I don't care. I'm not suicidal but if something were to happen to me and I were to die I wouldnt be mad about it. Knowing that I could get out of the pain I live with then so be it."  The more I thought about it the more I was okay with it. This past year I have taken more medication then I have sine I got sick. I have let myself go becuase I know that nothing I do is ever going to make me feel healthy again, nothing I do is going to get rid of the pain, and nothing I do is ever going to change what I have to do each day just to survive.

I just got back to California after spending the last 3 months in Utah. Two days after I got home I went into a massive flare. Never had I felt more pain from fibromyalgia then I did when I woke up that morning at 4am. I had to call my mom to come and help me walk to the bathroom I couldnt even do that on my own. The pain and depression just got worse each day. I was having major panic attacks and I was lashing out on my mom who was only trying to help me. I was screaming I was shaking I was feeling so much pain and so much depression that I didn't know what to do anymore. As soon as I was able to clear my head a little and gain some control over my emotions I realized that I need help. I need help or I really might not make it to 30. My way of just letting fibro control my life and the way I handle it just with medication that sometimes isn't enough is not working anymore. I can't do it on my own anymore I really need help. I need a new way of dealing with and treating the fibro. And hopefully in time I will also be able to get a handle on the depression and anxiety and maybe I can get a little bit of my old self back.

So, a change is gonna come. My mom came across a fibromyalgia clinic right here in Roseville that has a 3 month treatment program specifically for fibromyalgia. It was kind of ment to be actually my moms phone randomly turned off and when she turned it back on it went automaticaly to her junk mail in her e-mail. She saw this email that said " fibromyalgia doctors near you" She opened it up and took a look and decided to call this office. She spoke with the receptionist who was also a fibro patient at the clinic and said that usually it is a 2 to 3 week waiting period but someone had just called and cancelled their appointment for the next morning right before my mom called. She said that even though I was in a huge flare and in a lot of pain I needed to come in so the doctor could see me at my worst. We went in the next day and had a consultation with one of the doctors who are apart of this program and he knew immediatly that I needed help. He said that he could tell just by looking at me that I was in pain and that I have obvious nurological things going on by the way my eye lids flutter when I close my eyes. He took my pulse and said that my heart was just racing which is something that happends when your body is in pain. I was shaking and crying and just so emotional. He explained what the treatment program entails and I had some concerns but after expressing those concerns he talked threw everything with me and I knew I was ready to make a change.

Like I said its a 3 month program and it has 3 doctors that are apart of the treatment. There is a neurologist, an MD, and a chiropractor. They make changes to your diet which I know is going to be hard for me but it will be worth it. They do all kinds of blood work to look for auto immune diseases and other things that may not be related to fibro and they can do what needs to be done to take care of those other issues to improve your health. They do full body X rays to make sure everything is the way it should be. With my familys medical history there is a lot of genetic stuff that I could very possibly be on my way to getting or already have it. They do oxygen therapy, chiropratic therapy, detoxing of the liver and intestinal track to get rid of all the toxins my body has from all the medication I have been taking for years. I will go 3 times a week for 3 months and hopefully by the end of 3 months I will hopefully be off of a lot of the medication, I will have learned how to manage my pain and diet, and be able to learn to live with fibro a healthy and safe way.

I go in on Monday morning to get the blood tests and x rays and exams done and then go from there. I know its going to be extremely hard but I know it needs to be done. Like I said I need help and I need a change. My family is very supportive and they all said that they are glad I finally realise that I need some help and they are proud of me. That means a lot to me and knowing I have their support makes me want to do this not just for me but for them as well. I know I have put them threw hell when I take everything out on them even though they have done nothing wrong and don't deserve it. I am really looking forward to starting this and ready to start feeling better and living as healthy as I can. Im ready to accept the help and accept the change that is about to come to my life. I wanted to start blogging again becuase I know I have a lot of fibro friends that hopefully read my blog and I can give them hope and let them know that they are not alone. A change is gonna come and I am ready for it!

Anyone who is interested in hearing more about the program can go to this link HERE and watch the video.