Starting today

“Life can either be accepted or changed. If it is not accepted, it must be changed. If it cannot be changed, then it must be accepted.”

 

Starting today...

Starting today I will no longer worry.

Starting today I will no longer cry.

Starting today I will no longer wonder if you are thinking about me.

Starting today I will accept the fact that I am sick, and as much as I wish there was end to all of this.. theres not.

Starting today I will do the things that will help me feel better.

Starting today I will acept the fact that I have gained a lot of weight, and I am fat. And as upseting and embarassing as it is. It is what it is. I can not get rid of my pregnant looking belly until I have surgery.

Starting today I will start doing the things I can to lose the weight that is able to come off.

Starting today I will have a better attitude. At work, home, and just life in general.

Starting today I will no longer dwell on the problems at hand

Starting today I will pay the bills that I am able to pay instead of going to dinner or buying a new shirt.

Starting today I will laugh more and smile more.

 Starting today I will no longer be sad that I only have a few friends left in my life, and I will cherish the ones that I have and try and be a better one to them.

Starting today I will no longer let my OCD get the best of me.

Starting today I will no longer get into bed when I get home from work. I will walk to the dog, knit, and maybe even do laundry. I will do whatever that keeps me up and going.

Starting today I will try and find myself and figure out who I am.

Starting today I will figure out who and what I believe in that makes me happy and gives me faith. And not just beileve in the religion that I was raised to do and will not let anyone make me feel like a bad person becuase its not what they think is right.

Starting today I will tell everyone that I love that I love them and that they mean the world to me.

Starting today I will start believing again.

Starting today I will not depend on other so much.

Staring today I will be positive instead of negative.

Starting today I will let people in.

Starting today I will be a better blogger. I know I don't have many readers but its a great release for me.

Starting today I will try my hardest not to say the word hate.

Starting today I will try to be a better person.

Starting today I will not overreact or jump to conclusions.

Starting today I will try and find and learn a new hobby.

Starting today I will try and understand why bad things happen to good people.

Starting today I will learn that some things are the way they are for a reason.

Starting today I will take better care of myself.

Starting today I will do things that make me happy and not just do things to make others happy.

Today I will learn that even though I am not where I would like to be in life but I will accept the fact that I am where I am and I have to make the best of it.

Starting today I will no longer be upset that I have to take extremely strong pain pills in order to function every day. I will just be greatful for modern medicine and that I am able to have something that can offer my comfort and less pain.

Today is the day that I decide I love Dennis Leary.

Today is the day I realize how great my country is. And that I am so blessed and so unbelievably honored to know 2 great and amazing people who are fighting for my freedom right now.

Starting today I am getting off of my Salt and Vinegar chips and Sprite diet.

Today is the day that I let my bitterness for the trainweck that was my engagment go. And let him know... That I deserve so much better then you.

Starting today I will learn that some things just cant be fixed.

Today I will learn that even if I never find anyone that I love and who loves me. My family will always love me and be there for me.  I will never be alone.

Starting today I will say my prayers to whoever I believe is my God.

Starting today I will count my blessings.

Starting today I will not be ashamed to tell you that I know every word to every Missy Eliot song thats out there.

Starting today I will learn to love myself even when I hate myself. I will love myself even though I have gained 60 pounds in the past 4 months and I feel and look discusting I will love myself.

Starting today I will try and find what makes me unique from others.

Today is the day that I stop procastinating.


Starting today I will do whats best for me.

Starting today I will try so hard not to fall apart.

Starting today I will live, love, and laugh. I will dance like no ones watching and I will love me for me and hopefully one day find someone who loves me for me. 

Starting today I will set goals and try my hardest to accomplish them.

Starting today I will not be so un happy with my job. I know that I always have the choice to leave but I don't...  I have a fear of change, of not knowing what I am doing... I made the decision to stay here so I am going to make the best of it.

**"The key to change... is to let go of fear.”**

Starting today I will no longer say no. I will not longer say no when I get invited to things. I need to get out.

Starting today I will start answering my phone to those numbers that I avoid becuase I don't have money to pay them. Atleast if I answer and tell them I have zero money I will feel like I am atleast trying to be responsible.

Starting today I will learn that only kidness matters in the end.