Do You Remember me?

Hello Readers bloggy friends and blog stalkers! How are you! I have not seen you in so long! I know I know.. Its my fault I have not kept in touch. Wait what? You don't remember me? Oh okay well let me remind you of who I am because things have changed:



I am the writter of this blog who has had a very life threating near death experience recently and has realized that if I had died I would have died this bitter, bitchy judgemental person who has a lot of anger and grudges. I would have nothing to show for me being here on this earth.. no one would even know I was ever here...the only thing I would have left behind is the smell of my perfume. Having been going threw this trial I have realized that I want to change my outlook on life and not be that bitchy mean angry person anymore. I want to do something good in my life and something that I feel like I have acomplished and done for the good. I am trying to be more happy, and not hold so much anger about things that are in the past that I can not change. I want to let go of things that I don't really dwell on but still think of un fair and wrong in so many ways. I am trying to show people the love that they have shown me in the past 3 months.

I have never felt more loved then I have since going threw all of this. So many people came to visit me at home and the hospital, they stopped what they were doing with their lives to come and sit with me while my mom had to go to work just so that I would not be alone in the hospital. Everytime they left they told me they loved me. Sent me and Brought me flowers,. teddy bears, coloring books, because they knew it would cheer me up and take my mind of off everything. Brought me big body pillows so that I would be more comfortable away from home. They prayed for me every day. My name put on the temple rolls, and my ward had fasted just for me. Every sunday my bishop asked the ward to pray for me. I have not been to church in the past 9 years and still they did that for me. It is amazing how cared for and loved I felt and I want to show that and do that for other people as they have done for me. I want to do something for the good and for other people... My sister Meagen and I are working on something but more will come later on that... Lets just say I have Yogos on the brain!...no I did not mean bogo.

Things in my life have changed some for the good some for the bad.. Something new I am an Aunt!! To the cutest little guy ever! Kelvin Kyler Love! Seriously. Cutest guy eVvVa!
I can no longer drink caffeine or carbonation. Bad for my not functioning kidneys. Who knew? Lately I like Cheetos. I don't know why I have always hated the things. My birthday is coming up.. Its on the 26th. I'm turning 22. What am I doing for it? Oh I am going to go and have a stint placed around my kidney so that they will work and I can go pee. Being able to go pee would be the BEST birthday present eVvVa! My insurance is refusing to pay my 13 thousand dollar hospital stay bill when I was in for 7 days for Renal Failure.... They say its pre exsisting. Thats funny.. I don't remember being in renal failure before. Hm. Weird. Im pretty sure my kidneys have never failed before. Maybe I'm wrong. Ya never know.

STUPID!

Anyway, its good to see you readers. I will keep in touch more. I will be having surgery soon again so I will be down hopefully not for long after this one. I promise to be a better bloger and person. By the way.. Does anyone even read this anymore? Probably not. Whatever..