Tattoo Help

Okay.. I need some help. I am planning on getting a tattoo with the money that I won at the casino. Everyone knows how much I LOVE Marilyn Monroe so I am going to be getting a quote by her as this tattoo. I have some many favorites that I need some help choosing which one to actually get. I have decided I want the tattoo on my foot, but there is a longer quote that I really like and if I were to get that one I don't think it would fit on my foot so I thought maybe the back of my shoulder? Anyway I think I have it narrowed down to a few that I really like but I need to choose one. I am going to number them and put them into a poll so you can all vote. You can also just leave me a comment on this post or leave a comment on the link to this post that will be on my facebook page. However you want to do it please let me know which one you like the best. Becuase I won the money on a pink diamond slot machine I am going to dot the "I" in Marilyns name with a diamond to always remember winning the money. =) Here are the choices:

NUMBER ONE: " A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left" - Marilyn Monroe

NUMBER TWO: " Beneath the make up and behind the smile I am just a girl who wishes for the world"- Marilyn Monroe

NUMBER THREE: " We are all of us stars, and we deserve to twinkle" - Marilyn Monroe

NUMBER FOUR: " I am good but not an angel, I do sin but I am not the devil, I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love" - Marilyn Monroe

NUMBER FIVE: " I believe that everything happens for a reason, people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so that you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together" - Marilyn Monroe

If any of you know of other Marilyn quotes that you think I may like let me know! Thanks everyone for your help!

I'm Sensative

I've been told that this song describes me perfectly..What do you think?

I'm Sensative

Jewel:

I was thinking that I might fly today

Just to disprove all the things that you say

It doesn't take a talent to be mean

Your words can crush things that are unseen

CHROUS: So please be careful with me, I'm sensitive

And I'd like to stay that way

You always tell me that it's impossible

To be respected, and be a girl

Why's it gotta be so complicated

Why you gotta tell me if I'm hated

CHROUS: So please be careful with me, I'm sensitive

And I'd like to stay that way

I was thinking, that it might do some good

If we robbed the cynics and took all their food

That way what they believe will have taken place

And we can give it people who have some faith

CHROUS: So please be careful with me, I'm sensitive

And I'd like to stay that way

I have this theory, that if we're told we're bad

Then that's the only idea we'll ever have

But maybe if we are surrounded in beauty

Someday we will become what we see

'Cause anyone can start a conflict

it's harder yet to disregard it

I'd rather see the world from another angle

We are everyday angels

Be careful with me 'cause I'd like to stay that way

New Hotel Blog!

Ready for some totally AMAZEBALLZ news? Here it is....

I have created a new blog!

http://hollishotelhorrorstories.blogspot.com/

I decided that with all my years of working in a hotel its time to share some of the crazy and insane stories that I have experienced with guests, co-workers, and also employees of hotels that I have been the guest at. I am really excited about this! I hope that everyone has fun reading all my crazy stories that I am going to share! Be excited! Be Be Be Excited! ( Yes I did just cheer...what of it?)

Pink Diamond Slots!

I went to the Thunder Valley Casino a few weeks ago, and I won BIG TIME!!
Let me set the scene for you. This was the second time I had gone to the this Casino. The first time I went I won $161.00 dollars on a penny machine! Wahoo! This time I went I set a limit for myself so that I would not spend all my moneies. I brought $100.00 dollars in and said to myself I would not spend more then $60.00 dollars.


I went to the Wheel of Fortune machine first becuase my mom always wins on it so I thought I would try it out. I put in $20.00 and lost it all. So then I moved to another machine and lost another $20.00. Didnt even break even nothing I just lost it all. So I decided that I was just not having good luck so I thought I'd just be done for the night.


As we walked around I saw a pink diamond slot machine... I thought to myself... I HAVE TO PLAY THE PINK DIAMOND MACHINE! I mean come.. its PINK! So I pulled out my $20.00 and said to my mom and Joe ( With a frowny face) " Ok if I lose all of this can you please give me milk money for the rest of the week?"

I put the money in and pulled once and I got nothing. I pulled again and I won $40.00 and I said that I was just going to cash out with that. My mom had told me not to that she had a "feeling" that I shouldnt.... Uhh ok mom. She pointed to the top of the machine and explained to me what it was that I needed to win the jackpot. I pulled again...

1 pink diamond...

another pink diamond...

and a THIRD PINK DIAMOND!!!!

I won the Jackpot!!!!

$9,595.31!!!


Yes that is nine thousand five hundred ninety five dollars and thirty one cents!!
I was in shock for like 10 minutes afterwards. People kept crowding around me congratulating me I just stood there like " what..?? what is going on?? Did I just win?"
When the people came over the asked if I wanted the taxes taken out right then or later, I was greedy and wanted ALL of it right then! So they walk out with a huge stack of 100 dollar bills. WHUUA??? I asked them" You really are going to give this to me in cash?" They said yup and made me put my hand out and I watched them count and put $9,595.31 right into my hand! Becuase they gave it to me in cash I obviously didnt want to walk around all night with all that cash expecially becuase of how many people sat there and watched me as I was being handed all that money. So we had to have a security guard walk us out to our car after only being there about 15 minutes!

This money is just craziness! Its like a month later and I still cant believe that I won! ( I know I am seriously slacking on my blogging)
Now that its a month later I realized how quickly that money has gone. Jeesh! I have spent a little here and there and a lot here and there. I plan to get another tattoo and I have bought myself a lot of new clothes and a new laptop and helped out family members... and some very lucky homeless people. But I still have a lot left that I plan to do things that I have been trying to do for years that I just havent had the money to be able to but now I do!! Yay!!!

That was the best night ever! And the best part about it is that I was wearing a shirt with Marilyn Monroe on it that says " Diamonds are a girls best friend"... Pink Diamonds were deffinitly my friend that night!

A family thats FORD tough

My heart goes out to the Ford family during this difficult time for them. I could go on and on about him and how truly amazing he was. He was there for me during difficult times in my life and was always able to make me smile when I thought it was impossible. I will always cherish the friendship I had with him and the times that we spent together. I will never forget the mornings he would cut school and come to my house to watch music videos with me because I was home sick and lonely. He would always be there to keep me company, watch movies with me or just talk whenever I needed a friend. He would always protect me and was always by his friend's sides no matter what. I know there were days I would not have been able to make it threw without him and his kindness and ways to make even the darkest days seem bright . Scotty will always have a place in my heart that will never be forgotten and I will always cherish his friendship and everything he had done for me. I feel honored and greatfull to have known him and had him in my life. Rest In Peace Scotty. We all love and miss you.

Scotty's Obituarie

http://m.heraldextra.com/lifestyles/announcements/obituaries/article_f9d0a603-2504-585e-8288-78eeade39738.html



Scott G. Ford
1988 ~ 2011
Scott G Ford, age 23, passed away on July 22, 2011, returning home to his Heavenly Father.
He was born on July 7, 1988 in Provo, Utah to Derin and Lisa Ford. He was a sweet and happy little boy. He attended Orem Elementary, Lakeridge Junior High and Mountain View High School. He had a passion for sports. He loved baseball, wrestling, football, wakeboarding and snowboarding. He also loved to dance. Scotty was extremely dedicated to keeping fit and motivating others to do the same. He pushed himself to excel in all that he did. He loved a new challenge.
Scotty loved life. He had so much compassion for those who were hurting. He had the most sensitive and tender heart, and with that, a quiet inner strength. He had so much insight regarding the things most important in life. He had an unmistakable and infectious laugh. Scotty was a loyal and true friend to everyone who knew him. His brothers Curt and Mitch, however, were unquestionably his closest allies and friends. They had a bond unlike any other.
He is survived by his parents, Lisa and Derin Ford, brother Mitch and his wife Christine and their children Hudson and Demi; brother Curt and his wife Cassie and their children Hallie, Mayzie, and Dirk; grandparents John and Joan Ford and Glenn and Colleen Mott. He is also survived by numerous aunts, uncles, cousins and friends. He was loved and adored by them all. He was preceded in death by his close cousin Ryan Ford.
Viewing will be Friday, July 29th from 6-8pm at Sundberg Olpin Mortuary located at 495 South State Street in Orem. There will be another viewing prior to the funeral, Saturday, July 30th from 10:30 to 11:45 am at the Canyon View Stake Center, located at 575 E. 800 N. in Orem. The funeral service will begin at noon. Interment will be at the Orem City Cemetery. Condolences may be sent to the family at www.sundbergolpinmortuary.com
The Ford family would like to express their deepest, heartfelt gratitude for the outpouring of love and support they have received from their family and friends. We have felt your love for Scotty.
Scotty, we feel you with us and we'll see you soon. Save us a spot on the roster.


I love that personal note: "Save us a spot on the roster"...amazing. Here is an article written by Neil Warner. I know him and his family and I am touched by what he had wrote about Scotty and his family.

A FAMILY THATS FORD TOUGH

http://www.heraldextra.com/sports/blogs/neil-warner/article_cf8d1b1c-b8d5-11e0-985e-001cc4c002e0.html

I was at a concert when my phone buzzed and a text came in. 'Did you hear about Scott Ford?'
When you get a text like that it's usually bad news.
I hoped it was referring to the success of Scott Ford's summer sales or that he was going to join his older brothers Mitch and Curt for a baseball tournament.
Nope.
He was on life support.
Turns out Scotty was already gone.
The life of a 23-year-old had been robbed. Stolen before its time.
The news was received like i was running down the field on a kickoff return and was blindsided.
There was not enough air to breath. The shock of this tragedy has not faded since the news broke last week.
Death can be like lightning strikes. They are all around you- always hitting objects that are out of sight.
That is until the lighting scores a direct hit.
Derin and Lisa Ford are one of the class families in Utah. I have covered all three of their sons when they played (football and baseball) at Mountain View High School, and I have played in many baseball tournaments with Derin.
They are a close family, who have been tied together by baseball over the years. I love them and I know so many people in this community feel the same way I do.
What makes this so difficult to accept was the way it happened. Scotty was killed (run over) by a vehicle after an altercation while working in Mississippi. Now there will be legal action and court dates to follow. At some point the family must deal with the tug of war they will have with vengeance and forgiveness. Pain will continue as the judgement comes down on the person who took Scotty's life. The Ford family, who have been built Ford tough, will be tested.
Those who know the family are now only left with memories. I remember watching Scotty as a little second baseman on the Orem Thunder Super League team when he was in junior high. He played with my son and we spent many summer weekends watching them play in baseball tournaments out of state. Those memories are so easy to recall.
We can't do anything about what happened, but what we can do is show the Ford family that we care. Love does not have to be silent, It can be and should be communicated.
There is a viewing on Friday and the funeral will be on Saturday at Noon in Orem.
So many people have told me 'I don't know what to say.' I'm a writer and I can't think of the right words to say either. Perhaps what matters most now is that we support the family and let them know that life does not end here and neither does the love we have for each other.

Scotty Ford

 Rest in Peace my friend. You will be missed and never forgotten.

In the event of a sudden loss of cabin pressure...

After 900 stops (okay more like 2 but it felt like 900.) I finally made it to California for the summer. It was a hard decision for me to choose to come here but as I was sitting on the plane I realized that it was the right decision.


It was a hard decision for me for a lot of reasons. I didnt know what would be easier for everyone involed. Would it be easier for Meagen and my dad if I was not there. One less mouth to feed, Wouldnt have to worry about Meagen and I having to share a car, things like that. But it was so so hard to leave Meagen and my dad. Since its just been the 3 of us for a year now I feel like we have developed a new bond with eachother after being threw what we have been threw together. I felt like I needed to stay and help Meagen with everything going on there and start working again to be able to pay rent and bills. I felt like I was just leaving them and thinking about if I am causing more problems by not being there to help with things. It was hard for me to think about how things would be in California as well. Even though I was told I was welcome to stay and get a job but there is always this feeling of me overstaying my welcome, and being an inconvience.  It was like either place I would be at I felt like I may be an inconvience. Because that is just the way I think....Apparently therapy did not heal me of everything.


I know this may sound weird but as I was sitting on the plane something that was said hit me and made me realize I was making the right choice. Because my plane had to stop in Vegas, Burbank, and then my final stop Sacramento I took off 3 different times. And each time new people came on so the flight attendants made their speech about the exits and what to do in an emergency water landing and blah blah blah. During their speech they explained that in the event of a sudden loss of cabin pressure that oxygen masks will fall from above you and that you should always put yours on first before helping others. And after the third time of hearing that it finally became clear to me. Take care of yourself before helping others.
For the past year I have been so worried about others and helping take care of others that I have been un happy. People would tell me " Take care of yourself" " Do whatever makes you happy" but there has just been so many other important things to think about and take care of that doing what I want or what I think would make me happy just didnt ever cross my mind and when I did I thought it was selfish of me. Theres has always been an open offer to come and stay with my mom. And after I got really sick when I was here in April, and then I went home I just decided that this Summer I would take her up on that offer and spend the Summer out in California.


When I decided to come stay for the summer I had 2 goals in mind. Number one was to find a job. I have completed that goal. I turned in applications for the Hampton Inn which I would prefered to work at obviously since I know the system like the back of my hand. I was offered a job at the Orchid Suites and I took it. It was good for me to step out of my comfort zone and learn something new. I am still learning and probably screwing alot of things up but I like it. Its good to be working again and feeling somewhat like a human being again. I miss working at a hotel and getting to know guests and everything I just hate not knowing what Im doing. I am use to being the one that everyone came to to fix the problem or help them with something that they couldnt do or didnt know. Its very hard for me to not know what I am doing and feeling uncomfortable. Its difficult to focus on the guests and customer service when your so concentrated on not screwing things up on the computer. Hopefully things will get easier and I will get more comfortable as time goes by.


Goal Number 2: FINALLY lose all of this discusting weight that I have gained. Alot of it has to do with 2 of my medications. The depo shots and lyrica. Number one side effect is weight gain. Alot of people refuse to even take them because of how much weight you gain while you are on them. Its terrible. Unfortunitaly I dont have the choice of not taking them. I have to take them. I wish I could blame it all on the medication but I can't. Most of it is becuase I have just gotten lazy and stopped caring and now I just want to scream. I am so dissapointed in myself.. Everytime I look in the mirror I just feel ashamed. Discusted. So much hate. I have to get rid of this weight, I want to go back to looking thin and being able to wear all my clothes that no longer fit. Be able to look in the mirror and like what I see. I know its going to take a lot of work I would like to lose at least 30 pounds. I have been asking for suggestions on what some good diets are or work out routines people do to lose weight. Some of the suggestions I have been given are : Meth, Cocaine, get rid of one of my legs, eat only a half of a tortilla chip a day, and just get good nutrition. I dont really want to cut of one of my legs so i think ill pass on that one. Unfortunitly I dont have the will power to only eat a half of a chip a day. ( maybe thats part of how I got into this discusting over weight body.) I could go the drug route but lets face it I dont really need " are you really an addict" conversation with people again. Because I wouldnt be so polite in holding in my fuck you's to people. I have started my Wii Fit account again and according to it I am obesse. WTF? So I am working out on it for a half hour every day. And also trying to cut my portions in half. If that doesnt work Ill go to not eating for days and when I feel like I am about to faint Ill eat a cube of cheese. With that and one stomach flu away ill reach my goal weight.


Hopefully by the end of Summer Ill be back to my normal weight and Ill have saved some money to get back to a normal life again.


But what if this is as good as it gets?